pop impeccable bitch.

2005-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

this is the last.

im saying goodbye.

2005-09-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

attachment tmrw at sgh again.
think its a oncology ward this time ward.
sue said this time there may be alots of packing to do.
goodness.

didn't do much today. kinda just to rest and let my body get all engined up.
hahas.
mom cooked a scrumptious lunch. clement, royce and aunt jen came.

practically took a nap for the whole of the afternoon. darn tired i tell you.
went to the hospital to visit grandma again.
had no appetide to eat. so while the rest went dwn to eat dinner, i bought tau huey and soya bean milk with pearls for myself and granny.

went back up and fed her her oats and the beancurd.
slowly drank my soyabean milk while watching others. hurrr.

waited for the rest to come back. stayed a lil while longer then accompanied mom to novena square. replenished my liners. bought a pair of shoe from bata.

just got home. darn tired.
exam time table are coming out tmrw. kill me man.
and theres one more presentation coming up soon.

patients education. and its a 10 min solo presentation. shoot me in the butt man.

aiirights. time to retire to bed.
bye
-
that funny feeling i had in the tummy early this afternoon. i realize actually it wasn't something nice.
what could it be. my imagination ran wild. but i hope it wasn't what i was thinking.
but then again.
sometimes we wonder why things happen when they do. and the only way is to just accept it.
i just hope its not what i think it is.
only when i hear from you tonight, then can only the butterflies settle in my tummy peacefully.

2005-09-25T11:25:00.000+08:00

big hello. :)

22.09.05:
went to school. finally finished up our HIM project. woots.
went home after school. bathed, changed and left the house.
trained to potong pasir with sam and nic after their work.
gonna crash at sam's godma place from thurs to sat. her godma moved out. so the house has no one staying. so she loaned us the place for 3 days. :))

had macs for dinner. then got ready for momo's party. selling tickets this time so had to leave early.
took the cab to momo. it was pack i tell you. so many people man. saw so many peeps that we havent seen in a long time.

everything was so screwed up after. the tables and all. and it was madness inside. can't even move man. finally the partyy only started for us at the later part. the partyy ended ard 3.30am. and poor sam got so high.

we cabbed back to potong pasir after. i had to bathe her. omg.
hahas. it was rather funny actually. :D
put her to bed then went to sleep on the couch. forced nic to take the other room.

talked to kho before sleeping. and finally i could fall asleep.

23.09.05:
woke up at around 10 plus in the morning. sam was the last to get up. willie went to buy breakfast for us. spent the day slacking around. shiokedelic to have an empty house to ourselves but the mess was utterly terrible. HAHA.
look: this is what u get when u put 6 teens in a house w/o any parents. haaaa.

tony came ard in the afternoon. my whole body felt so terrible after that. throat hurts so much from all the shouting. nose was dribbling non stop with mucus. urgh.
took a nappie till evening. willie bought us dinner.

i did a lil laundry. helped sam clean up the house a lil. was a tad too messy for comfort. hahas.
last min plans on going to blacks.
OMG man.
body wasn't feeling too good. but no choice. went along.
saw viv and su. but i didn't see CANDYY. where were you woman?? hahas. su said u were on the dance floor.
ooo. got to see viv's special someone and i got a tad too excited for her. ahahs.
spent the whole time just sitting at members. didn't move much. was too tired man.
nic was so high. finally i decided it was time for her to go home.
told sam we were leaving first and we'll meet back at the house later on.

cabbed back with nic and willie. the two were so high man. hahas.
after we alighted the cab. both were sprawling all over the ground.
didn't know what to do at first. let both of them puke all they want. hehhhhh.
finally had to heave nic up. SHES NOT LIGHT MAN. hahas.
told willie to get up too.

stripped her in bed and changed her.
went back to cleaning up the house while the rest came back. tony, sam and calvyn were back ard 4 something i think.
went to bathe. then slacked on the couch. talked to kho again before sleeping.
and darrling baby shaun came into this world on the 24.09.05. :D adorable sweetpea.

24.09.05:
woke up at 8am. went to try waking the others up. but obviously no one budged so i went back to sleep. hur.
finally nic got up and she decided to take MC. my flu and throat was worsening.
she took the MC while i took the medication. hahas.

ordered macs for lunch and macs screwed our order up. tony left first. then followed by sam and cal cos they had work.
nic, willie and i cleaned up the house and left.
napped at home just now.
kho called numerous times to check on how i was. thanks.

went to TTSH to visit grandma. she got warded in :(
fed her oats.
went to boon tong kee for dinner after. or nee was gooooooooood. :)

kho told me the concert at crown was a huge sucess. the back up dancers were hot and good looking. thanks for telling me. sniff.
ed chen was there too he said. but he didn't recog him. HAAAA. bum.

tues clubbing at newsroom bar.
thurs clubbing at club momo.
fri clubbing at chinablack.
and what do you get?

a bloody sick cow.

but the time spent with my darlings. simply wonderful. :)
love you girls.

2005-09-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

PartyRevelation@ClubMomo on 22nd Sept Thursday!!
Venue: ClubMomo(Central Mall) Party from 9pmtill 4am in morning!!!!
Music : Rnb Top40s whole nite long!!
Promo : One for one whole nite!!(housepour & beer)
MinAge: 18 for both Guys and Ladies!!!
Tickets : $14 for bother Guys and Ladies

This will be one of the biggest party of the year

Rnb top40s spinning
drink going at one for one whole nite long
There is Something to be Revealed that nite , so be there for the revelation...!!!

2005-09-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

heh. the newsroom party was so so only la ytd.
besides that idiot condom mascot. everything was fine. :))
i have like so many lubricants and nic has condoms. heh.

newsroom

left the party ard 2.45am i think. got home at 3am.
plonked into bed straightaway after bathing.
but couldn't sleep somehow.
mind was full of shit. and finally after calling kho, i managed to fall asleep at ard 4.30.

woke up at 10. slowly arranged all the stuffs for school.
went for bio lec for 2 hours. then had HIM meeting after.

left school ard 4 oddish. thought it was gonna rain heavily.
but not even a drop came down since i got home. -.-

managed to do some stuff.
need to go pack the things needed for tmrw.

woots. friday's another self-proclaimed off day for meeeeee.
hurhur.

oh yeah. tmrw's party.
its at club momo.
come people.
same thing, call sam, nic or me if u are. :)

-

jol: woah. tues, thurs, fri and sat. clubbing all the way.
are you crazy?! hahas. im going dead broke. i need a sugar daddy. u provide one for me to pay for me and i'll be at mdm wongs. hahas. i dont know when's my holidays la.
i think november? MY FINALS NOT EVEN HERE YET.
crapshit.
hahaaaas. SEE YOU TMRW AT MOMO's. :))

2005-09-20T17:45:00.000+08:00

i made my own salad today. i think nic's the one who got me into doing it too. hahas.
woke up early, and started preparing for my salad and..
TADAH!!
melly's chef salad. :))

doesn't it look yummy. i think it does la. and it taste damn bloody good too considering its my first time.
hur.

i am so proudddddd.

today's another self-proclaimed school holiday. slacked ard at home.
watched elf on the vcd.
rather nice actually. funny too.

just took a short nappie. changed too. gonna go out soon.
gonna pick nic and sam up later then heading dwn to newsroom.

BYEBYE

2005-09-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

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2005-09-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

sleep at 4am this morning and woke up 7.30am to continue studying for bio.
when the alarm clock rang, i felt like as if i didn't sleep at all.
urgh. irritating.

test started at 10am. ahhhh.
all i can say is that, just let me pass. thats all im asking for man.
D. just a D will be fine.
im not asking for more.
heh.

had school till 6pm.
finally its the last lesson of National Education. thank god man. but for the first time in NE's class i've not fell asleep. prolly cos its not mdm wong this time round. hur. its some ex prison officer lecturer. woots.

mom came and fetched me home.
she bought so many eats from NTUC. ahhhh.
:))

she cooked dinner. yu pian tang, steamed pork balls and bittergourg with eggs and prawns. YUMS.
i love bittergourd. but i abhor the juice.

nic came by for a while just now to dig my cupboard. and she just left to meet guomeng feeling satisfied. hahas.
tmrw's another self-proclaimed no school day.

and tmrw night.
hoho. party.
come people. read the details after this post. call me, sam or nic if u're coming.

:D

2005-09-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

SLEEP was simply wonderful last night. :))
so the camomile tea works. heh.

its rose off day today.
got up, bathe and made the bed.
changed then left with mom to waterloo street temple to pray.
since it was raining we decided to shop ard OG while waiting for the rain to stop.
BAD DECISION.
ended up buying a skirt, a cheongsam top, a babydoll and a pants.
wa lao. burned a hole in mom's pocket. hahas.
owells. but THANK YOU MOTHER. :)) <3

headed to grandpa's after.
supposed to be there for a while only. but mom ended up wanting to stay for dinner.
she cooked fried fish slice beehoon soup for dinner. added with hell lotsa chilli padi.
man. it was doubly shiokedelic. hurrrr.

just got home. i need to start studying for bio.
its at 10am tmrw. only another 13 more hours to go. im so dead. i need to burn the midnight oil.

im outta here.
ciao.

-

sam: what?! u dream that i was a hammie? hahas. was it adorable first? if it was then i wont take it that it was a nightmare la. can't wait to see u on tues and thurs. newsroom and momo. (check her page for details! ) :)) LOVE YOU DARRLING.

-

im so sick and tired. just leave me alone.

2005-09-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

woots.
for the first in ages. the feeling of getting high and tipsy wasn't there. ehheheh. nic was a lil thou.

and how embarassing man. we had like that $1000 HUGE bottle of drink. was it chivas? i can't remember. 2 shots of sex on the beach each. one lychee martini, shots of chivas nick, and one flaming lambougini each.
then the podium we headed. omg. was dancing with nic when i think she lost control or something, she lean so hard onto me till i lost my balance and we both fell off the podium.
OMG. pai sey man. hahas.

sam darrling left early with tony.
nic and i stayed on with wilson and zach.
left ard 3 oddish i think. headed to macs for supper. zach couldn't leave early so wilson, nic and i left first after supper. saw guomeng in his siam supper club shirt. hahas. woots.

cabbed home. and the whole time we were talking about LATEX RUBBER.
understand? if not you're dumb. heh. hahas.

reached home ard 4 oddish. and conked off to bed.
woke up at 9 oddish in the morn. accompanied lina, mom, uncle rog to being grover to the vets. got his microchip and heartworm jabb.
went to sebastians for lunch. had mushroom soup and beef in red wine stew with mashed potatos. woots. yummy balls.
lunch total = $170.
vaccination for grover plus lunch = $300.
there's a big hole in uncle rog's pocket. hurhur.

went home. napped for a while.
then got up, and changed to leave for grandpa's.
celebrated mooncake festival.
SO HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL Y'ALL! :D

ate and ate again. lanterns everywhere. sparkles everywhere.
:))
had camomile tea instead of the trad chinese tea this time. its supposed to help you sleep wonderfully. i need that man. HAHA.

just got home not long ago only.
there's a bio prac paper on monday. double shits.
i have yet to start. i need to start tmrw.
AH.

nights all.

2005-09-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

ho.
went to school this afternoon from 2-2.30pm only.
had our electives, HIM test.
didn't study at all man. only read through the tutorial questions.
and heh. the test was kinda aiiright. maybe for a few questions.

bought macs for mom after. she came to pick me up.
drove to NEXT to get our hair cut. i just trimmed my hair. mom permed.

nic came over also after collecting her lappy from NUS. practically slacked ard till mom was done.
and 3 of us were debating whether to just stay and eat char kway teow for dinner at serangoon.
but i said NO. hahas.

drove back home. dropped nic at her place first.
mom cooked grilled porkchop with herbs, baked mashed potatos, sauteed mushrooms, veggies and garlic buttered bread.
SINFUL but GOOD. :)

nic came back over and had dinner with us. pratically just chilled ard. im addicted to the channel 8, 9'oclock show man. hahas

gonna head dwn to blacks again later.

needa get ready soon.
ahhh. missed my 9'clock show.

2005-09-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

was late for school today.
had a bad dream last night. dreamt that i had a HUGE argument with kho. it was really bad. i can't really rmb what the content is. but i knew it wasn't anything good. it better not come true man.

got to school when the first hour of lecture ended.
was gonna attend the 2nd hour when mari mari said she was hungry. so we went ter eat. :) yong tau foo soup. YUMS.

slacked in the com lab till 11.30am. walked to cheers to buy a small carton of soya bean for myself. then walked slowly to the 6th floor for psycho tut.
it was presentation for another grp and presentation again for another tutorial after that. so basically i attended school for 2 hours watching people present which i thought they did pretty good. :))

cabbed home after. the weather was madness man.
urgh.

slacked ard. took a nappie till mom came home. si fu came and did some chanting at our place. its something we do once every year la. u know, just to bless the house and all. so yeah.

headed to bottle tree village for dinner. apparently it rained there. so the weather was really cooling.
mom ordered tons of food. and i feel so guilty after eating balls. felt like throwing it all up immediately after. ahahas.
made myself climbed the staircase when we got home. at least i feel better thou it wasn't much of a help. hahas.

aunt jen loan me this book.
fatal flaws by ginna gray.

the story's about a serial killer targering women of Mears, Colorado, and so farthe police have nothing to go on. Detective Casey O'Toole is assigned to jump-start the investigations, and she discovers to unsettling facts: the victims were all patients of a prominent plastic surgeon, and each of them bears an uncanny resembalance to herself.
Ruled out as a suspect, Dr. Mark Adams offers to assist casey in any way he can and, despite her resistance, their relationship quickly turns personal. the pressure on casey to find the killer mounts steadily as terror grips the small mountain community. then a stunning tist leads casey to the deadly truth - and to the face of a killer nearly as familiar as her own.

pretty interesting eh? :))
i can't wait to start reading it. but i got a paper tmrw! and i've yet to study. hahas.

gonna burn midnight oil tonight i guess.

2005-09-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

To YOU.

i didn't make any decisions to go to another person. and would you, would you STOP mentioning about the other person whereby this no other person ever existed.

why i get irritated all the time when u call. its because its really is too late to make things turn around. think about it. the past 11 mths when u had the chance to make things right. did you. you said you knew things were going wrong, but yet you didn't know why you didn't do anything. what's that man.
u knew, and you didn't ask me what went wrong.

and now, you're trying ways to make things right. dont you think its too late?
you told me time and again it takes two hands to clap in a relationship. whats the point saying it whereby only one person is doing it.

people. hell lotsa people. have been asking me why i was holding on when im suffering. even I have been asking myself time and time again.
but yet i knew why.
I LOVED YOU TOO MUCH. TOO MUCH. THATS WHY.

i did not / will not ever regret being with you. i had my happiest of the happiest moments together with you. but im sorry, all those times i sat and home and waited waited for you. and all those times i hear you saying all those shit to me and i tolerated.

i controlled and controlled. but the last straw came on that week when i heard those words coming out straight from you mouth.

yes. you can say it isn't fair to you that i seldom give second chances.
but im sorry.
it has been too frustrating and hurting.
i cried my fair share and im so sick and tired of it already.

i just want to be left alone sorting things out.
and im really disgusted abt those things i see on ur page.

enough is enough.

i cant take all this shit no more.

not any more.

2005-09-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

yawns.
im so tired.

skipped school today. was just two hours lecture of bio. but i didn't feel like going. plus got home late last night. so yeah. tired tired. mmms.

practically just chilled at home the whole of the after noon till around 5.30pm.
changed and left the house. trained dwn to town.

took my own sweet time and walked to wisma famous amos. bought cookies for sammi, nic and mari.

walked over to heeren to surprise my sweetie. :) finally could go dwn and visit her.
talked to her for awhile then i left and walked to hilton.
went to meet the other girl. :)

saw varion (i dont know how to spell). hahas. but he's a sister. nic's turned off by him. but i thought he was quite funny. rather sociable really. hmm. come to think of it. most sisters are sociable la. and they're the safest and bestest friend a girl could ever have.

waited for nic to end work. went to have dinner at orchard towers.
supposedly was suppose to go far east. but we dropped by mango. and it was a big big mistake. heh.

i saw soooooo many pretty things i want. im going to psycho mom to go shopping on sunday after cutting hair. but there's a bio paper on monday!! AHHHHHHH.
dont care. shopping's more impt. hahas.

and i saw a transexual boobs. it was HANGING, yes u heard me. it was HANGING out of the babydoll top she was trying on.
OMG. i thought it was the end of the world when i saw it. and the poor salesgirl. she wasn't very tall. so she was level with the boob.
shit man. it wasn't really pretty. ARGH.

chilled outside macs after.
but we got so tired then we took 132 home.
yawns.

aiirights. im gonna sleep with mommy tonight.
nights all.

kiss.

2005-09-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

I PASS MY CLINICAL SKILLS!! :))

woots. hurhur. im so proud of myself. :)
marianne passed too and ima proud of her too. :))

panic the whole of this afternoon can. was in school like at 8 plus in the morning whereby class doesn't start till 1pm. accompanied mom to have breakfast at macs in school.

headed to the com lab after and it was e-m-p-t-y. hahas. marianne came ard 10 oddish. studied like shit man. my brain almost died i tell you.
but all those effort were good. :)

had the clinical test at 7pm. one to one with the lecturer. and the lecturer who took me today was our temp mentor. i cant remember whats her name. i doubt she even recognises us man. hahas.

this yr's diff from the last. last time it'll just be tested on just one particular skill. but this yr, they'll give a case senario and you gotta apply some critical thinking skills and tell them what kinda nursing skills u'll perform for them.

so mine was a patient who came in for haematesis, blood clots and pain in the abdominal area.
so my skills was to perform was insertion of nasogastric tube followed by doing a intermittent suction. :)
woots.

marianne had nasogastric insertion followed by a gastric lavage i think.

oh yeah. and all the news we heard about diff color cards are diff case senarios were crap. when we went in its all attached in a transparent folder. its all the same man. heh.
but owells. alls good. :)

met up with nic after school. supposed to take the bus to NTUC. but guo meng rang her up and said he just finished his motor prac at ssdc. so he'll come get us.
so he drove us to serangoon gardens. went to the NTUC there to get nic's salad stuffs. hahas. she's a terrible salad maker. :p

then after we headed to a garden roof top kinda restaurant. think it was called Ambarella or something like that. quite a nice place to chill. :)
and i was forced to eat. OMG. ate a mushroom porkchop at 9 plus at night man.

ALL THE CARBO. AH.

im gonna starve on fruits in the day till i meet nic at night tmrw, cos when u go out with her, the main thing will be EAT. :D hahas.

owells. just got home not too long ago. im so tired man.
needa go to bed. nights all.
-
oh yeah. to isabel, shaoyang, linda, diana and the rest of 0431. all the best to ur clinical skills. do well, knock em' dead! :))

2005-09-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

slept with mom last night. air con was on. shiokedelic. :)
we were afraid shell would be cold. so we wore clothes for her. had to dig for those really small sizes one. hahas. so adorable man.

woke up early this morning.
mom asked me to help her make wo tei. hahas. its my first time making la. had to much difficulty at first balls. but after that, it was so much better.

this is being made by mom. nice right.

this was one of the ugliest of the ugliest that i made. its so hideous man. hahas.

tadah. after i got the hang of it. this is the nicer one.

went over to grandpa's for dinner.
everyone turned up. omg. and this time 4 dogs were there too. the family's getting packed man.

i just realized all of the dogs our whole family owns are all free. christmas (mongrol), gotten from noah's ark. shell (english cocker spaniel), from a abusive owner. peanut (shih tzu), found him wandering round the streets. hasher (maltese), found him in the forest in a lychee basket. u-u (maltese), given to us by uncle jon friend bcos he didn't have time to take care of it. grover (golden retriver), from a abusive owner too and butter (labrador), found around marymount convent school.

not bad considering that non of us even owned a dog before. :)
all expensive dogs somemore.
loving all of them shitloads. :))

went to pump petrol after with mom for her car. walked ard the petrol shop thingy and saw a limited edition kit kat peanut butter flavour.
bought it. havent tried it thou. looks yummy.
chocolate and peanut butter? good combination. :D

got a surprised phone call from calvin. omg man. its been ages.
i think since when i was sec 2. havent really heard from each other since cos after that he went army. its been 4 years man. 4 years.
will be meeting up for coffee sometime soon. cant wait. :))

just got home. tired. i need ter crash real soon.
*yawns.

2005-09-09T18:32:00.000+08:00

woots. was a lil late for class today.
but thank god asmah wasn't in class yet.

had yong tau foo for lunch. :))

was so tired in school by the time it was mid-day. and the weather was purely madness.
so hot man.

its the last lesson for electives today. hurhur. shiokedelic.
then next week is the test which only takes half an hour.
then will be project. we need to make a medical record that's according to our OWN hospital name, rules and regulations. :))
i reckon it'll be fun.
that is if everything goes well la. hahas.

came home early. didn't go for the practice thingy. was darn tired.
meet the girls later on for blacks.
aiirights.

-
guys are such bloody MCPs.

2005-09-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

mom drove me to school this morning.
school starts early today so couldn't accompany her to take her blood test and to the docs.

had both meetings. psycho and dengue.
thank you so much marianne. for everything. :)

psycho presentation at 12pm. ivan low liked it.
had dengue presentation ICA at 1pm. miss ho gave us an A.
so well done overall people. :))
woots.

after all those were over, felt like as if a whole big load of burden was lifted off.
felt so tired immediately after that.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

slacked for the whole of the 2 hr break. for the first time it feels so shiok. hahas.
went for clinical lab at 4pm - 6pm.

and the burden came crashing back again. argh.
clinical skills test next tues, 7pm.
then HIM test too. need to create a whole new medical record.
ohhhhhhh. kill me please.
and finals will be in october.

OCTOBER!!

and i feel as if i just started school not too long ago.
snorts.

i just need a good night sleep and i want to see my girls.
its been a busy week.
tmrw. blacks. i'll prolly fall asleep. hahas.

i miss u girls.
come to mama soon. :)

2005-09-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

URGH.
woke up early this morning to study for HS 2057.
omg. but there were so many distractions man. mom bought laksa, hei mian, chui kueh, chee chong fan and fried carrot cake.
LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF CARBS man. heh.
but it was all good. :D

went to school early to meet marianne. skipped bio lec to study.
test started at 3pm.
heh.
PLEASE LET ME PASS. i've nvr failed this module before and i dont want to. i want to maintain my A like always.
but looking at the paper, a C will do fine too. hahas.

went to mona's house after to continue doing the project for tmrw's dengue presentation.
omg man. we were there till like 10pm i think. we had burgers for lunch. her maid cooked for us.
CARBS again. hahas.

still have so much stuffs to do. and there's psycho presentation tmrw. i hope all goes well. sighs.

nights all. need to go back to know more about Aedes.

byebye.

2005-09-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

woke up early this morning for piano lesson.
teach said i played well. there shouldn't be any problem for later's paino exam.
felt better.

accompanied mom to AMK CH again. took her blood test.
not good. :(
platelets and WBC dropped.
i just hope everything's well on thurs when she goes for her third test.
im getting use to her being home everyday.
its rather nice for a change.

she drove me over to heartland mall for the exam.
started feeling all nervous again. when i got to know that the examiner was a ladyy. i started feeling all clammy. palms were emitting sweat like no one's business.
cos they said lady examiners can be a bitch sometimes. so yeah.

i scanned through the list and WA LAU.
i was the oldest can. the next oldest was born in 1997. -.-
my turn came at 2.45pm. went through the whole process and came out. i thought i did badly. my sight reading was fucked up. she gave me a piece with 4 sharps.
yeah. female examiners can be a bitch.
I WANT A MAN.

mom drove me to school after. missed the first two hrs of lecture.
lesson lessons and more lessons.
did abit of dengue shit.
and tmrw there's HS2057 paper. damnit.
then thurs is 2 ICAs.
just kill me now la can.

i can't get everything over and done with.
i feel so bad abt psycho presentation.
URGH.

im going to bury myself right now.
bye.

2005-09-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

i hope whatever happened to me last night to me at 12am and 1am will be my first and last.
it was scary shit and i dont want it to happen again.
and i chanted. thank god, god was there. mommy too.
please let it be the last. i swear.
it wasn't funny nor exciting.

slept really lousy. eyes was poofy in the morning after all the crying.
mom brought me over to the monks house ytd to pray. to ask what happened last night. and why it would happen.

brought mom to the docs after cos this morning when she woke up, her skin was full of rash. WHOLE BODY infact.
Dr. Goh gave one look at her and said "OH NO. i think you have a case of dengue fever."
SHIT.

brought mom over to AMK CH after to do a blood test.
her WBC were fine.
but her RBC, Hematocrit and platelet cells were close to the abnormal range.
she has to take blood test every single day for the next 5 days.
:(

why mommy man. fucking hell.
now, i hope her body immune system will fight the dengue virus away.
there's no medication to give when a person has dengue. the only medication they can give is to cure the symptoms. thats all.
:(

so many shits been happening man.
ICA's coming soon. everything.

and why do i have that feeling back again.
its not supposed to be there right since i made my decision.

oh damnit.

2005-09-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

heh. last night the jack daniels party at chijmes was really really BORING.
the drink sucked. it tastes like cough syrup. ended up drinking only a cup.

wil, sam, nic and i decided to leave early. walked all the way back to raffles mrt. trained dwn to town to meet shuhui.
headed to lido for mini sup. all i know was that my feet was aching. i chose to wear the wrong shoes ytd. snorts. its my favourite pair of high heels. but wrong day ytd considering that my feet were already shouting in pain since work ended.

my pretty pair of shoes. :)

headed dwn to blacks when everyone else arrived. blacks was jam packed cos apparently SMU was having a party there.
was already tired when we were seated at members. not in the mood to do much. drank a lil. we left early at 2.30am. was just sleepy and tired.
sam and nic were the same.

got woken up at 7am this morning by gela's morning call.
got dressed and met her at ssdc. took my BTT. heh. gela's friend and i failed. gela passed. :) i found it funny when i saw the word "FAILED" on the screen. i wasn't surprise la. considering that i did not study.
so i signed up again la. next test 30th sept, 6.30pm. i'd better pass.

supposed to go mona's place to get stuff from her. but she wasn't home yet from her night. so i went home. slacked.

got so bored so i started snapping pictures with my 2 darlings.

took a long nappie after till mom came home from recke. changed and took the dogs for the dog hash.
felt really good to run tdy. the run was muddy, fun and smelly. :))
by the end of the run, u-u turned from white to reddish brown, shell turned from brown to dark brown. :)

we showered the dogs outside the car. then it was my turn, followed by mom. tried calling mona. but she said she was too tired. change it to monday.so it was fine.

drove home. its the last day of HGF today. so went dwn to pray.

mom's not feeling too good again. im so sleeeeepy.
im gonna go to bed now. so early man.
but owells.

goodnight.

2005-09-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

im so doubly tired.
my feet feels like its gonna dangle and drop off any minute.

last day of attachment and its back to school next week.
supposed to go over to mona's house for meeting after work. but i was so tired. my eyes felt like it was gonna droop close and not open for the decade.

it takes me more than an hour from outram to reach woodlands.
ringed mona. she said i dont have to go dwn. she knows what ima suppose to. so i'll be going dwn tmrw after my BTT to get it from her.

trained home. was surprised to see mom home. she was having high fever.
all curled up in bed shivering and the fan wasn't on, wondows were closed. quickly did cold compress on her. drowned her with plentiful of water and a cup of vitamin C.

bathed then napped. just woke up to check on her. fever's dwn alot. now's just low grade fever. whew.

needa change soon. heading to Jack Daniel's party at chijmes at 8.30pm with the girls and to meet daryl there.
then blacks again after that.
but ima so so so tired. i need to sleep.

owells. prolly i'll go take another short nap again.

i still have another 30mins.
but i'll prolly oversleep again.

boo.

2005-09-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

morning shift todayy at work.
bathed patients. almost was able to do catheterisation for a pt. SN told me to go prepare the things first and i did.
but she doesn't want to do it till later. happened that i went for my break and when i came back she was doing it already. so :( . bah. i didn't have the chance in the end.
got me excited for nothing.
bah.

morning was busy. bathing patients and blah blah.
finally everything quieten dwn after lunch time. and it got messy and full when the afternoon peeps came.

knock off work at 3pm.
went to bishan to meet serene again. then trained home.
did abit of work then i fell asleep. woke up late, changed and left the house. suppose to pick nic and sam up from work.
they knock off at 7pm. but i left my house at 6.45pm. took a cab dwn to hilton instead.
picked nic then we walked all the wayy to heeren to find sam.

headed to cini for dinner after. had BK. woots. :)
met edna and chris. :)

slacked ard. then went to buy tickets for herbie. hurhur.
nic and i like the show. we though it was quite nice. sam didn't. she said it was stupid. hahas.
lindsay lohan's boobs are really big. heh.

i love the buggy man.
i've decided. its either gonna be green or yellow.
mom said not to get a beet chev. cos peeps will scratch the top. she said to get the normal ones will be better.
SO OKAYYYY. :D

trained home. was so sleepy already then.
got home, just finish bathing.
ima gonna crash now.

nights. :)

2005-08-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

woots. back to ward 64S for attachment.
all the familiar SNs faces. :)
and got to see aunt jenny there again.

trained to work. i took a train to work man.
heh.
met serene the buyer first. she was late so thus i was late for work in the end.

this time it feels funny to be in yr 2 with the yr 1s asking you questions.
hahas.

work was aiiright.
knocked off at 9pm and felt so tired.
called mom out for supper thou cos i was hungry.

marianne and i shared a cab dwn to thomson. mom bought for marianne's mom a mooncake. haha.
she da bao-ed a mini hot pot home to eat.
mom and i wanted to have prata. but it was jam packed. saw qiuhao there. chatted a lil and i got to his chij st. nicks girlfriend. but the face wasn't familiar so..*shrugs.

had mini hot pot for supper instead.
drove home. mom and i started feeling horribly guilty for supper and she blamed me. hahas. rose took the lift while we climbed the staircase. heh.

early night tonight. tmrw's morning shift.
yawns.
nights all.

2005-08-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

manage to get up on time today. in turn i was the one hurrying mom.
hahas. she drove me to ahmad ibrahim and we got lost. found it finally. everyone got lost trying to find the place man. luling and g latha lost her way. only xiaomei and meijun found theirs cos they just stay opposite. -.- hahas.

today's much more interesting. its immunisation time for the pri 6s.
and i swear some of them are really brats la. there's 1 or 2 really cute boys. hahas. watching them take the DT and MMR injection sorta bring back memories man. :))
imagine we used to be in their position and now, its diff. when i was that age, i didn't know that i'll be the missy with them. heh.

when it was the girls turn, they were like " can i hold you hand?"
hahas. so adorable man. and i said sure.
one malay girl even dug her TOENAILS into my feet. it hurts i swear. hahas. but owells.

some of the boys were brats i swear, i just wanted to kick them in the balls. some acts all high and mighty. urgh.

but i like working that way. its rather relaxing as compared to ward life. but i wonder whats the pay like.

some shit happened when they were just finishing up the last class. some error shit, some boy had a drug allergy after jabbing and some boy had some shingles thingy till they had to stop immunising the last 17 girls. and they were so disappointed.

everything was done at ard 13 30. all of us slept in the ava room for a while. i drooled and woke up. couldn't sleep so i started snapping randomly. :) hur.

all of us

heh.

look at how tall's the water cooler man. haha.

the shs nurses.

after that the clerk needed some help. so we went over and did some filing and sorting out for her. we OT-ed a bit and the SNs came and shoo-ed us to go home. snorts.

supposed to go over to mona's for meeting after attachment for a meeting. but was about to leave when isabel msged me saying it was over already. heh. friday's another meeting instead.

trained home. feel so numbed today.
mom cooked fishball noodles for dinner. yums. :)

i feel so fish ballie right now.
i can't wait for the weekends to come.

2005-08-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

dragged myself out from bed this morning. was so tired man.
had difficulty sleeping last night. mind was rather occupied.

mom drove me to sgh's health promotion board, school of health sciences.
met marianne there.then headed upstairs to the rest of the people.
had a mini briefing from those sisters.then a tour ard the health promotion board.
i love the dental room. so pretty with all the mini cubicles. :))
and all the NYP's dental therapy students were there. i thought the DT boys look young. *blink.
:))

during break, marianne and i went to 7-11. while browsing throu the shelves of chocolates, marianne found something at the mini toy section.

its one of those sticky toys that u're supposed to smack onto a glass panel or something and watch it somersult dwn. hahas. the figures were so adorable and we bought it. i got the monkey and she got the spider.
HAHA. :D

i got posted to Ahmad Ibrahim primary. and marianne got posted to Teck Whye Pri which is all the way at CHOA CHU KANG. hahas. poor thing.

when we got there, everything was over. hahas. cos ahmad ibrahim only has single session. so everything was sorta done by 12. hahas. we got there at 12.30pm. so they sent us for lunch. then told us to go to the art and craft room to rest. got so bored so i started snapping. :)

ahmad ibrahim

su tagged me saying that i should bring something to read bcos i'll b bored and i did. i brought my basic theory book. ahahahas.
studying

we had soooooooo much time to kill. i read till i got sleepy and when i looked up, everyone was sleeping already! so i joined the club. hoho.
sleeping

it was not until 3pm then the SSN called us in to brief us. and she finished briefing at 3.30pm. and brought us to the air conditioned AVA room to slack. then told us to sign out at 4pm. woots. hahas.
while leaving the school, those students that we came across all shouted "BYE NURSE!!" hahas. so friendly man.

accompanied lu ling to fairprice to do her grocery shopping. hahas. i carried her basket for her while she went ard. she bought rice, veggies, pork and bread i think. hahas. :)

trained home after. feel so lazy man. tmrw hafta go over to mona's place for meeting.feel lazy somehow. but still have to go. hahas.

was talking to dan on msn and he sent me this picture.

-.- . idiot. im going to kill him on friday.
hahas.
but i thought it was funny. but still i'll kill him on friday.

aiirights. im outta here.
byebye. :)

2005-08-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

LAZY SUNDAYY.

got woken up by the doorbell. mom and i are starting to get irritated by the doorbell. we need to change the sound to something else different.
like maybe a "ding dong" or a "ding ding" or something la.
the old one is driving me crazy.

thank god i woke up and my throat's not swollen. but the lump is still there.
i feel like taking a sterilized pimple needle from mom's drawer and give it a pop and let all the pus just flow out instead of swallowing it slowly everyday.

aunt jen and aunt yi came by this morning with breakfast. chui kuey (which im starting to eat again) haha, gluttinous rice thingy, yam cake, butterfly and you tiao. acc with black kopi and teh xi. :)
woots.

practically was on the computer the whole day.
need to do some shoppong with mom tmrw. :)
heh.

had my first mini conetto ice cream today. its really mini . by the time when i walked from the kitchen back into the study room, the ice cream was already nicely settled in my stomach. heh.

tmrw's supposedly a one week holiday. but those in sgh has attachment.
first 2 days think ima going to pri schools first.
hahas. primary school health checkup. woots.

so early night tonight.
-

-why do all the bad come to me and the good to the others. why.

2005-08-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

shagged to the bone.

met up with nic last night. i RAN for the bus. RAN.
hahas. i havent ran for a bus since 23534637 years.
and it felt good. haha.

trained dwn to somerset. went to heeren to find sam after her work.
then walked all the wayy dwn to blacks.
sat outside while waiting for tony,dan,wil and cheewee to arrive.

photos frenzie while we waited. wil arrived first.
almost died while waiting man. they took so long.hahas
but finally we went in first.

dropped off our bags.
and the party started. hahas.

woots. it was fun fun fun.
its always fun damnit. heh.
i know i was playing 5-10 with dan. bianca came. then started dancing at the pod.
hahas. woots. dont know whats happening but sweeeeeeet.

sam's brother was there too. hur.

then i dont really remember much. then nic and i left early first.
cabbed dwn to pasir ris chalet. met up with willie and friends.
i heard i fell. but i dont rmb feeling anything. but now my butt hurts a lil.
slept till nic woke me up to bathe. was laughing non stop i swear.
sat outside till morning came.

went back into the room. slept again.
heh. felt so lazy man.

left ard 3 oddish. cabbed dwn to grandpa's.
bathed, changed then headed dwn to sembawang park to have dinner at bottle tree restaurant.
beautiful place.
and my lil sweetie, megane, can walk already!! woots.
:D

supposed to go to blacks again tonight.
but felt too lazy and mom didn't really consent cos she wants me to rest.
she said i have to build up my immune system.
hahas.

so fine. im home. well no, in aunt jen's place.
they're watching the bone collector. watched that show a thousand and one time. its really good. :))

ahhhhhhhhhh.
im gonna join them now. ciao.

2005-08-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

school was fine todayy.
electives rocks my socks big time la. hahas. another 3 more lessons to go then end of electives already. :)
woots.

attachment next week.
sighs. people get to have the whole week off but those in sgh has to go for attachment.

my day was fine till it got ruined by someone.

was sleeping just now. just got up.
have to get ready and change to leave for blacks.
simply just cant wait. hahas.

aiirights.
gotta go.

-

i can't be fucked anymore.
say what u want to say. as long as i know i did not do any wrong, i have nothing to be worried and bothered about.
let the whole world know for all i care. enough is enough.
so FUCK YOU.

2005-08-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

i was late for school todayyyyyy.
mom got pissed cos im always late for 8am classes. i cant help it really!
im always doing the extra 5 mins thingy.

my eyes were soooooo heavy the whole day.
damn tired.
clinical lab, i almost wanted to sleep.
sighs.
had no mood to practice for catheterisation too.
my throat is still hurting and blacks on for tmrw. :(

met up with nic after school.
trained dwn to PS to catch a movie.
watched bewitched. its okayy la. really funny at some point. but overall. i wont say its not good, i wont say its good. so u judge. hahas.

my god. and when u watch a movie with nic. its scary when she eats. she ordered one jumbo hotdog, 2 cheesy hotdogs and a nachos meal. woots.
and she almost considered popcorn too. had to tell her NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

walked to heeren after everything.
met up with sam, tony and cal.
chilled outside UOB. then trained home.

ima so tired but still have work to do.
bye. i need to hurry so that i can have my beauty sleep.

yawns.

2005-08-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

didn't go to school today.
went to view the dog again but uncle rog said he wants to think about it one more time.
:(
and aunt jen's thinking that if he doesn't want it, should she take it in since grandpa's staying in a landed property too.
but hasher's gonna have a prob with him i think. hoho.

groverrrrrrrr.

changed. went downstairs and da bao 2 packets of chicken rice over to THE PRINCESS'S place.
supposed to watch lemoney snickets while eating chicken rice. but then the vcd was really screwed up. hahas. so couldn't watch in the end.
the chicken rice chilli was shiokedelic. :D

slacked ard her room after. digged her cupboard. tried clothes. and i swear her room is number 1 one. NUMBER 1.
woots. the HAIRs all over. NUMBER 1. ahahahs.

watched one tree hill. nice show thou i dont really get it.
have to camp at her house one day to have a show marathon.

changed and left the house ard 6.
met dan at J8. supposed to meet tony too. but some bloody asshole stole his wallet so he couldn't come in time. so ended up 3 of us went ahead to watch Charlie and the chocolate factory first. then tony sneaked in later.

the show was sooo chocolaty. had such bad cravings to get my hands on one of those willy wonka bars. hurhur.
and johnny depp looks terrible in that movie. hahas.
but still, i like the show. :) but not those lil stumpy figures. they're rather ugly and irritating actually.

after the show, dan, sam and i went over to tony's house for dinner.
had corn beef and roast beef.
YUMS. and his father's chilli. SHIOK AH. :)

i know, FOOD AGAIN.
hahas.

chilled ard. then left ard 11.30pm.
cabbed home while sam bus-ed and dan walked.

so tired and sleepy man. and the period's knocking on my door.
:(
i needa sleep.

GOOD NIGHT.

2005-08-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

so had piano lesson this morning at 7am.
i played better today prolly cos nic made me practice the other time. aural was excellent. :D
and somehow, i don't feel like stopping piano. i feel like continuing but prolly take a break on the exams part. but mom wants me to. but she leaves it up to me to think abt it.

teach showed me a piece in the file today and said we'll play that after the exams.
i looked at the title of the piece and it was "tong hua".
EVERYONE has been asking me to learn that piece. i didn't even know how that song sounds like.
i had to DL it after the lesson to hear. hahas.

was stoning in front of the com when it started to rain rather heavily. shiokedelic man the weather. best to sleep in.
it took me like 30 mins to realise i didn't close the windows in my room. went into the room and caught my two lil babies on my bed all snugged and warm. :))

school starts at 1pm today. and i BUSed to school.
I BUSed TO SCHOOL! IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. :) *pats
hahas.

was preeeeeeetty high in school today.
laughing so hard non stop.
and marianne's going to melborne too! hurhur. *winks

had clinical lab at 6 - 8pm. thought it'll be practice for insertion of catheter.
but nope, it was on learning to bathe baby, umbilical cord and to feed the baby. :)

teach showed us once using the mannequin baby.
the baby's so small man. simply CANNOT imagine myself bathing them during my attachment to KK sometime this yr. :) and I CAN'T WAIT! hurhur.
it'll be fun. i hope..

then teach asked if someone wanted to try. all of us volunteered kar hian.
and he was good. impressive man.
of course some guidiance was needed, but still, terrific. :)

all of us thought he looks so fatherly man.
2

shu was saying hope that we'll be able to see him handle a real baby. it'll be cool i reckon. :)

reached home ard 8.30pm.
waited for uncle roger's call. then left the house again. mom drove to bukit panjang.
we were going to cindy (aunt jen colleague) cousin's house to look at a dog.
GOLDEN RETRIVER (how do u spell it?)
some other shit ass owner threw that dog to them and never came back. cindy's cousin has TONS of animals at home already and plus one 5 mth old jack russell. so she can't cope. she's looking for someone who'll adopt him.

everyone, meet Grover. :))
he's so beautiful i swear. fell in love with him man.

uncle rog is thinking abt it. said he'll sleep on it. and alina pestering him shits.
hahas. its good that he adopts him too cos grover's hind legs are weak due to him staying in a HDB flat. GR's are supposed to live in landed properties.

and if he does accept, we'll all go together tmrw morning to welcome him into the new home!
woots. so farkin' excited. hahas.

so now, there'll be shell, u-u, hasher, christmas, peanut and a new family member, grover! woots.

IM A SUCKER FOR DOGS.

okay. i needa crash right now.

nights.

2005-08-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

ima having the monday blues.
getting grouchy and shit.

but at least i prefer mondays as compared to tues and thurs.
ok.
nvm.

so we ballot for our individual presentation topics for 2036.
jaslyn got breast feeding. hahas. lucky girl. :)
marianne got wound healing or something like that.
i got OBESITY.
and that idiot sam kok smiled at me and said JUST NICE.
and to think abt it. I KNOW.
and a few ideas ran throu my head. :)
cotton wool, buds, toilet rolls. woots.

so corn's look can be deceving. you reckon?
marianne and i do.

sch was over at 3.30pm.
went home. slept.
woke up 7pm.
went out to work out myself since mom hasn't come home to acc me.
was back at 8 all sweaty and dripping.
cooled at the balcony.

started doing work.
all the wayy till now. and still doing.
sighs.

i cant wait for wed.
and i miss you sam.

2005-08-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

sundayyyyy.
what a supposedly sweeeeeeeeet lazy day.
and i had to wake up with a aching sore in my throat.
and woots. TONSILS WERE INFLAMED AGAIN.
farkanana.

mom gave me the "look".
she was frustrated. I was frustrated. the doc was frustrated.
he had no idea what medicine to give me anymore. he had to pick up a MIMM book and flip through.
and says" ok, we'll go with a lingoxin jab and erythromycin tabs."
and that jab created a bruise on my butt.

went to the wet market with mom.
havent been there for yrs since we moved in. the fish auntie saw me and went "WOAH. your daughter so big already ah. must be careful ah, cannot let dirty men cheat you"
and i smiled. "okayy auntie."

went to the yong tau foo stall and mom bought truckloads of yong tau foo.
fishball, white blanket, fishcake, you name it, we have it. :)
had yong tau foo soup and chicken feet fried beehoon for lunch.
YUMS. :D
mom's always amazed that when my throat's like that, i still can EAT.
like uh-huh.
ITS FOOD.

mom left for reche at 2pm.
lazed ard her bed. reading magazines.
slept and woke up at 7pm.
shaun called. made me wake up and cab dwn to prata house.
met him,kennth,siong and JJ for dinner.
they paid for mine. woots. :D

chilled. got home ard 11.

talked to melv.
and i want to see sasha. :)

2005-08-20T23:30:00.000+08:00

wooots.
clubbing last night at blacks was simply fun fun fun.
i dont rmb the music. i only rmb the drinks and the company. :D
hahas.

we took sooooooooo many pictures. in the toilet esp.
:)
sweeeeeeeeeeet.
viv and su were there too. :))

2 bottles of chivas. 20 tequila shots.
got so wasted man. dont even rmb how i managed to leave the club. but i think it was with the help of sam and bianca. hahas.
met willie and friends after that with nic.

the feeling of wanting to throw up but not being able to sucks big time.
when the car moved, i thought i was going to die.
water that nic gave me at some kopitiam sobered me up a lil.

then george gave me a ride home on his bike.
the wind, the speed, simply enticing. was sobered up onced i reached home.
waited for nic and the rest to arrive.

by the time all the hassle were over.
i crashed into bed at 6am. and i woke up at 9am this morning.
WALAO. i couldn't sleep anymore but thighs and calves were aching man.

pretty much slacked at home after that.
sam's starting work today. feel so excited for her.

oggay.
early night tonight.

2005-08-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

had clinical lab in school today.
felt soooo tired and drained man.
luckily lesson was just an hr.

ate guava for breakfast and it was rather slimy and had a taste of jackfruit.
eee.
im no fan of jackfruit.

had an hr of lecture after which i practically just stoned throughout.
marianne fell asleep.

shared a cab with marianne. she dropped me off at grandpa's first.
its the 15th day of hungry ghost festival. so have to pray.
fell asleep on yi's bed.

nic called and i walked ALL THE WAY out to the main road to meet her.
got her eyebrows prettied up then walked ALL THE WAY back to grandpa's with her. and the sun. OMG man. HOT HOT HOT.
i wanna go aussie. the weather's freezing everyone's tits off.
and i dont mind getting my tits all frozed up.
sweeeeeeeeeeet. ;)

mom drove us home after.
3 of us went dwnstairs to pray. and nic's legs got automatically fire burnt.
sexyy i reckon.
and ask her to show you her bikini tan man.
doubly the sexxayy.
HAHA.

can't find shit to wear to blacks.

nic and i's gonna have our mini fashion parade ridda now.

BYEBYE.

2005-08-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

didn't go for lecture in the morning.
face was still quite swollen then. popped the pills and went back to snooze.
woke up and felt much better.

but got rather self conscious abt the face again.
sighs. i look like my ic picture man.
gross.

went to sch for tuts and lab.

walked home after school.
damn shag. dont know why too.
hope i'll be better tmrw.
i wanna go blacks.

owells. im outta here.
have work to do.

nights world.

2005-08-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

mom walked into my room this morning to ask how was i.
i sat up of bed and looked at her.
and then..

mom: "AIYOH, WHAT HAPPEN TO YOUR FACE?! DO YOU FEEL LIKE UNCOMFORTABLE? LETS GO TO THE DOCTOR IMMEDIATELY"

melv told me not to look into the mirror at any cost last night. i listened. but after hearing mom's outburst. i simply had to.
and shit. i wished i listened.

mom wanted to drag me to the docs almost immediately. i told her to wait. prolly it'll go dwn. but it did not.
farkanana.

called mom and she drove back from her office.
brought me to the doc. he said im allergic to either cloxac or amox.
and he gave me steriods and piriton to stop the itch.

mom then drove me to my reg. doc.
showed him the medication. he was tutting at the steriods. told me not to take that. but continue the piriton.
he said smilingly, " no worries, everything will be fine in abt 3 days."
and i was like "3 days?! what about the face?"
he said, " yeah la, the same."
and i felt as if it was the end of the world.
not the face man. not the face.
SHIT.

couldn't go to school.
rose was laughing so hard, she says now my face look like when i was P4.
so fat. HAHAHA.
so mean man. haahs

melv and sam want to see. told me to take pictures.
-.-
and here it is. the eyes like so small.

how am i supposed to go to school tmrw.
so embarrassing.

2005-08-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!
I'M SO FUCKING ITCHY!!
*scratch scratch*

school was aiiright.
had lectures in the afternoon. marianne wanted to eat so we left halfway of psychology.
*scratch scratch*

haf bio tut.
i want her to by the lecturer. tut teacher and prac teacher.
i like the way she teaches. but she talks a lil tooooo fast only. hhas
*scratch

clincal lab was interesting today.
learnt catherisation for both females and males.
the male's looked extra painful man.
and the wayy kar hian handled the penis.... *claps
HAHA. hilarious man.
at least this mary ang person is soooooo much better than mdm asma.
linda knows how to do a good mimick of her. i swear it'll crack you up real hard. :))

*scratch scratch*

im feeeeeeeling so itchy. omg. esp my neck.
walked home. was so hot.
got home and i thought i'll stop itching.
but didn't know that i was itching real bad till mom yelled for me to stop.
i didn't know i was itching till even my bra was off already. i know. sounds exaggerating but IT WAS SO GODDAMN ITCHY!

*scratch

my neck was red, hot and a lil swelling. whole chest was so spotted.
but the funny thing was only my whole neck and chest. that was it. back, hands, legs, nothing.
well, please let it stay this way man.
*scratch

i called the doc. asked him whether i was allergic to the medication.
he told me to stop taking the medication. he said could either be the amox or cloxac caps that are causing it. but marianne reckons its the penicillin jab.
but normally medication allergies comes like within 24hrs what. i've been taking for like 4 days man. and it only started today.
*scratch

now i can even feel like spreading slowly to my face.
its so goddamn itchy!!!
*scratch

my body feels so hot that i bet when u crack and egg on my tummy, it'll cook a pretty sunny side up for you.
farkanana man.
and i want to go to school tmrw.
i wanna see what the girls and guys are doing tmrw from their entrepreneurship booth thingy.
i better be well. argh.

and mom's like "whats wrong with you man, throats getting ok and this thing happens."
how would i know man. so farkin' frustrating.
i just drowned my whole body in talcum powder. and im fidgiting all over the place.
you know what. im just going to bed.
stupid piece of shit.

*SCRATCH

and to the entrepre people tmrw. :) good luck for ur booth thingy tmrw.
do well! marianne and i will try going tmrw.
good luck again! :D

2005-08-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

was running a lil for school today.
but still, was on time in the end. hurhur.

ICA presentation finally's over and done with.
and guess what, we got an A!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!
good job everyone. :))
so one dwn. many more to go. :(

im like so flat broke man.
sighs.

went to meet the girls at our lao di fang in somerset.
chilled there till ard 9 oddish.
trained home.
my bladder's like so full man. had to pee like IMMEDIATELY.

oggay. im outta here.
nightss.

2005-08-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

woots.
got up this morning feeling so much better.
at least i can start talking again.

rose's off today. so its just mom and me.
had to help ard the house. its been ages since i done that. hurhur.
but i dont mind anyways.
cleared shell and u-u's poo poo and sheee sheee. hahas.

spent the day trying to recite for tmrw's ICA presentation.
im praying that my throat will be fine tmrw.
the last thing i need is to wake up with my throat swollen till the size of an elephant's foot again.

dinner was fun.
mom initially wanted to order macs. but we couldn't get through the line for an hour.
so dialed for pizza hut instead. and it took 1 1/2 hrs to arrive. too many pending orders already.
mom ordered like one regular hawaiian supreme (that comes with other things) and a 4 piece chicken meal from KFC. and 4 coconut pie (since we couldn't get mac's apple pie)
WOOTS. sinful sinful sinful.

on friday the house phone bill came.
mom got damn pissed. cos all the idd calls that's from melborne (both to and fro) cost $75. and yet, she doesn't want me to buy the phonecard to call.
sighs. and she's gonna deduct from my next allowance.

the last thing i need now is dad to call and ask abt my hp bill. hoho.

owells.
ima going back to do the reciting thingy.

ciao.

2005-08-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

woots.
blacks was fun last night. and it was so darn crowded.
got to see jol and aud. :)) jol said jixiang was there too. but didn't get to see her.
JS was there too. funny boy he is.

got sooo high at a point. then got sooooo sober at another. hahas.
it was all good. :D

pitcures pictures pictures.

left blacks ard close to 5am.
cabbed to nic's place. by the time all the hoo-ha ended, we finally got to bed at 6.45am. and both of us were 3/4 dead by then.
i slept till 10am. woke up. changed then let myself out of her house. the pig was still deeeeeep asleep.

peeped into wee's house and said bye.
took a cab home. wee called and asked where and whether i want a lift.
and i was like " WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY EARLIER??" ahahahahs.
but i was like 1 min away from home already la. so its all good.

mom cooked up a scrumptious lunch.
thought i would sleep once i get home. but i did not sleep AT ALL.
i didn't even feel tired.
but my throat was hurting again.
down lotsa water praying it'll help.

but shit.
it didn't. the similar pain started to come back.
didn't bother. went for dinner at no signboard restaurant.

after dinner, pain started to worsen.
felt sleepy and my body heating up.
mom drove to the docs and voila.
I HAVE TONSILITIES AGAIN! @%#*#&$%*&#^$)@)
he said my immune system is really low. and i've not been sleeping much.
and mom was like " yeah yeah yeah. she isn't. she's always talking on the phone till wee hrs in the morning and blah blah blah."
-.-

so he gave me a penicillin jab on the arm. and it hurts like fuck.
gave me 3 antibiotics. amoxil and cloxac caps. another one i forgot and painkillers to be taken PRN.

and i got a ICA presentation on monday.
shoot me somebody.

im going to bed now.

GOOD NIGHT.

2005-08-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

woke up early this morning.
and i got to school on time. i was there early and everyone was surprise.
ahaahahs.

school was aiiright.
spent our breaktime sleeping in the library.
i was soooo tired.

had electives today. for the first time, i found a module interesting.
heh.
we learnt about abbreviations used in hospitals today. so there's those common abbreviations that we use like :
COPD - Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease
AAA - Abdominal Aortic Aneurysm
CRIB - Completely Rest In Bed.
and blah blah blah.
and we learnt from the doctor cum lecturer person that there were other abbreviations used in hospital too. he gave 2 examples and one was FLK and another was GOK.

and he made us guess what it was. no one knew. and the answer was:
Funny Looking Kid [ its used in the peadetric wards to describe a kid who looks abnormal]
God Only Knows [ its used when no one is able to find out what is the diagnosis of the patient]

everyone started laughing.
hahas. well, I THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TOO. :)

electives was only an hr.
marianne accompanied me to yck to meet the seller.
then we left for home.

watched bride and prejudice.
and now i wanna learn how to dance like an indian too pleeeeeeease.
:))

nic came over after her paper.
sam and nic finished their semestral exam already. -.-"
and i just started school not long ago only.
NEH NEH.

we both fell asleep on my bed.
woke up to watch tv.

gonna go blacks later.
AND I CAN'T WAIT!
lalalalala.

:D

2005-08-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

LALALALALA.
:D
im in a super uber good mood today.
WOOT.

hahas.

was late for school today. i know, AGAIN.
mom was driving me to school. was telling her all the road signs and all those meanings and shit. having sucha good time till i stopped and looked ard.
and i went, "mommy, where're we?"
and guess what, we were at yishun. she forgot to drop me off at sch. she was driving the direction to work. -.-
had to turn back again. hahas.

had break from 11-4pm.
OMG. 5 hrs man. almost died.

had lab.
then left for amk central to meet sam and nic.

and we were chatting from nighteen to dozen.
and we got super excited for EVERYTHING.
heh.

owells.

IM JUST SO DARN EXCITED FOR TMRW NIGHT.
SO SCREW ME.

WOOOOOOOOOOSA.

oh! and i know a secret of isabel.
hurhurhur.
but she doesn't allow me to tell. :D

2005-08-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

so i woke up this morning at 8am without anyone asking me to and im proud of myself.
:)
but why is it always when its during the holidays but not on sch days?!
NEH NEH.

big aunt came by the house today.
she bought teh xi, kopi black and you tiao.
yums.

mom, her and aunt jen headed to ten mile junction after.
i stayed home.
watched vcds.
1. you stupid man
2. the in-laws
by the time it was over, mom called to ask us to get ready to go to grandpa's.

after 20 mins of hooha over the dogs, rose and i went dwn.
mom drove to grandpa's. drop the dogs then headed dwn to thomson plaza.
its been awhile since i've been there.
didn't know kellong has been bought over. hmm.

mom bought TWO basic theory books for me to study can.
she said MUST PASS OKAY.
-.- . so now I MUST PASS.

and i saw fann wong and christopher lee in ntuc.
and i swear i didn't know both of them were a couple.
so when i saw fann wong hugging chris lee when he was ordering, " auntie, can i have 200grams of hotdog." i thought they were acting a scene.
fann wong and chris lee were wearing full basketball jerseys. -.-
fann wong looked sooooo not nice. she looked like a hanger and the clothes were hanging on to her.

sorry la. not a fan of both. so yeah. heh.

drove back to grandpa's.
had dinner.
watched a lil of ndp. then after that shooting stars.
and... no comments.

so kho asked that question again that day.
i explained the reasons. and i hope he understood.
its all good this way now dont you think?

yes. i think its better this way.
im sure of it.

oh. and
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY Y'ALL.

2005-08-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

Stone by Stone.

i have a wall you cannot see
because it's deep inside of me.
it blocks my heart on every saide
and helps emotions there to hide.
you can't reach in,
i can't reach out,
you wonder what its all about.

the wall i built that you can't see
results from insecurity.
each time my tender heart was hurt
the scars within grew worse and worse.
so stone by stone,
i built a wall,
that's now so thick it will not fall.

please understand that its not you
continue trying to break through.
i want so much to show myself
and love from you will really help.

so bit by bit,
chip at my wall,
till stone by stone it starts to fall.

i know the process will be slow
its never easy to let go
of hurts and failures long ingrained,
upon one's heart from years of pain.
i'm so afraid
to let you in;
i know i might get hurt again.

i try so hard to break the wall,
but seem to get nowhere at all.
for stone upon each stone i've stacked,
and left between them not a crack.
the only way
to make it fall is imperfections in the wall.

i did the best i could to build
a perfect wall, but there are still
a few small flaws, which are the key
to breaking through the wall to me.
please use each flaw
to cause a crack
to knock a stone off of the stack.

for just as stone by stone was laid
with every hurt and every pain,
so stone by stone the wall will break
as love replaces every ache.
please be the one
who cares enough
to find the flaws, no matter what.

2005-08-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO GO TO GOTHAM!

went to school at 1pm today. had lecture till 3pm.
4pm lesson was cancelled. so went to meet sam and nic.
they still have 2 more papers to go before their 2 mths holiday. bitches. HAHA.

got home. watched save the last dance.
mari mari loan me the dvd. :)

gotham's having a party tonight.
but I CAN'T GO.

mom said its the 7th month. THATS WHY.
she said just to tahan for this 1 month and after that i can go all i want again.
just to tahan this 1 month.
AH LA. GOTHAM.

and sam, jol and sarah and etc etc THAT I WANNA SEE.

dont talk to me man.
im going to start getting into my pms moods.
hurhur. that is if i have one.

BYEBYE.

2005-08-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

doc goh called me this morning to check how i was doing.
hurhur. my first time hearing a doc call a pt to check up on them.
even mommy was surprise.

my throat's much better. i think.
its still painful each time i swollow. but at least i can talk properly now.
i hope by tmrw it'll be so much better so that i wont have to see him again.

woke up this morning and had like 5 spoons of mee tai mak for breakfast. hahas.
i didn't know mee tai mak was called mouse tail noodles.
did you?

went to change and got ready to leave the house.
was going to the esplanade to catch the dim sum dollies.
and again i was the last to get ready and that got mom pissed. haha.

mom brought aunt jen and me to "my secret garden".
its a restaurant.
and the ambience was simply beautiful and pretty. its so close to the main road but u can't hear shit from the cars and buses that are zooming past.
food's darn good too. :))
i had spaghetti agolio oglio, mom had some chicken thigh with something and mango sauce over and aunt jen had a msyb club sandwich on foccacia bread.
YUMMY.
dessert? warm triple chocolate cake and oreo cheese cake.
SINFUL.
im surprised i could swollow all those. owells. its food man. hahahas

caught the dim sum dollies at 3pm.
it was good.
so go watch people!
hahas. its so funny.

and mom was like thiiiiisssssss close to winning a freaking honda jazz.
sighs.

okay. bedtime.
nights.

2005-08-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

omg. i've never drooled so much on my pillow before man.
practically every position i slept in last night, i drooled.
mom said its normal esp. since my throat's like that.
whew.

finally i got ard doing the thing that i was telling myself to do for the past few weeks. throat started hurting again man. FARK.
so went to mom and ask her can i go see the doc again. she said to call him first. i did. and he said. COME DWN AND SEE ME NOW.

he had to force my mouth to open cos it couldn't. he was using the wooden stick to press my tongue dwn so hard that i thought the stick was gonna break.
he said its not getting better but worst.
and he gave me another jab. :(
on my left butt cheek this time. so now he has seen the whole butt. WA LAU.
he changed my antibiotics too. it got better this time.

accompanied mom to the dog hash.
didn't run. so i sat in the boot reading harry potter while waiting for them to come back.
after an hr, the fast runners were back. NO MOM and SHELL. ok. so i continued reading and waiting. and i started to have this really uncomfortable feeling.
ended up staring at the corner where the runners were supposed to appear. hoping and hoping.

okay. then another half and hour passed. the walkers were back, they even had time to pluck rambutans in the forest. u-u came back with one of the walkers. and still NO MOM and SHELL.
and panic decided to take over.
everyone started saying, "where's alice? her daughter's here. she's not here. she's not back yet?""its turning dark already. we have to start looking for her. its a really long run today. she could be anywhere. nvm, we'll give her 5 more mins to see if she turns up."that did it after i heard that. i just literally sat on the floor.

5 mins was up and they decided to start looking for her. i was on the verge of crying balls. tried controlling cos i didn't wanna look like idiot in front of them.
so they started running off when one of the ang moh adults shouted "There she is!" and she appeared shortly after with shell.

when i saw her and shell i started walking towards them still trying not to cry. and when i looked dwn at shell, she looked so tired and she was whining and limping bad. mom looked beat too.
and i broke dwn. i was crying and babling non stop.
i swear that was the longest 2 fucking hours ever. scared the shit outta me.

i was so glad she was back. and she got lost in the forest.
she admitted she got scared. and whats more its the seventh month.
but its a long story.
im just glad she's back.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BREATHE.

got home and talked to melv.
mom's talking to uncle jon filling him in i guess.

dont wanna think about it anymore.
tmrw we're gonna catch the dim sum dollies!
watched it last yr and gonna watch it again this yr.
sam's friend, louis, said it changes every yr.
WOOT.

im out.

- did i make a correct decision. what have i got myself into.

2005-08-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

this the first time ever that when i woke up this morning, i thought i lost my voice.
woke up and felt like as if my throat has swelled to the size of a balloon.
i literally ran to mom's room, took out the torch and shone inside my mouth.
i swear i couldn't see shit man.

tried to make my tongue lay flat dwn. only then i finally could see what the hell was wrong.
the two sides of my throat were doubly swollen, and this time round the dangling thing at the back of ur throat(i forgot what u call that again. i need my bio book.haha) swelled to the size of a pear.
and i fucking couldn't talk properly.

when i said "then", aunt jen thought i said "neh".
when i said "can go now", mom was like " can hold what?" -.-
and when sam called me after her paper, she said " finish the paper already" and i was like "how?" and she replied "finish the paper already." and again, i said" how?" and omg, we were repeating like 6, 7 times then i realized she didn't understand what i was saying. *snorts

went to school for clinical lab lesson only. then took a cab dwn to the docs.
when doc saw me, he immediately said" throat still not well?"
and i shook my head and opened my mouth.
and after looking, he said i have a really bad case of tonsilitis.

and he gave me a jab on my freaking butt.
and to think of it, the last time i had it was when i was in my birthday suit man.
he even said, " i'll be nice and let you choose which side of ur butt u want me to jab." -.-

slept throu from 11 till 5pm. shiokedelic man.

and im starting to feel sleepy all over again.

*yawns

2005-08-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

did you know that compared with the average man, the average woman has 70% more fat, posesses 40% less muscle and is 5 inches shorter.
and
compared to the average woman, the average men enters puberty 2 yrs later, is 20 times more likely to have color-deficient vision, and dies 5 years sooner.

also, women have a slightly better sense of smell and they more easily become re-aroused immediately after orgasm and as for men, they're much more likely to suffer speech disorders as children and to be able to wiggle their ears.

another thing.
among homosexual people, gay men likewise report more engagement in uncommitted sex than do lesbian women. casual hit-and-run sex (i didn't know there was such thing as a hit and run sex. HAHA) is most common among males with traditional masculine attitudes.

interesting man.
was reading the psychology book that ivan loh lent me.
there's still other shit inside like "how nice people get corrupted" and "who is happy - and why?"
didn't ever know things like that man.
and i think it's gonna be my bedtime story book tonight. :))

didn't go to school for lectures this morning. throat was really bad.
went to school at 12pm.
it was marianne's first ICA presentation and it was done really well. *claps*
teach even said most prolly they'll get an A. so friend, now u can stop worrying. :)

after clinical lab, stayed in the com lab with marianne.
we both tried to do most of it we can. then she left first.
i stayed on researching about other modules. sighs. so tired man.
finally left school at 9pm after being shoo-ed out by the in charge.

walked real slow home. thinking about some crap.
boarded the bus and shortly after nic came up. i had to stick my leg out right in front of her if not she wouldn't know i was just sitting there la.
sam said she's a blind bat. aahahahs. I AGREE. :p

just finished up all the rest of the work.
SO DRAINED.
blah.

i think i need my beauty rest now.
nights all.

2005-08-03T19:25:00.000+08:00

my throat got really bad when i woke up this morning.
took a torch from mom's room and shined it inside.
and the sight was horrid i swear.

the two corners of my throat were swelled up in many uneven kinda bumps.
and on the bumps were many ulcers.
no wonder it hurts so bad each time i swallow something or my saliva.
:(

mom came into my room and felt my forehead. it was burning again.
so she quickly went to get my medicine for me.
and she was like " you're a missy but yet i have to look after you. hmph."
and i smiled up at her and said " thats because you're my mother."
:))

ended up not going to school.
but gotta meet angela and her friends at 2pm.
went to ssdc to register for our basic theory test.
its on 3rd of sept. one month later. *snorts
so darn long.

supposed to head dwn to city hall to collect something.
but the woman couldn't make it.
so walked all the wayy home instead.

so tiredddd. and my throats to painful.
urghhhhhh.

BLAH

2005-08-03T12:24:00.000+08:00

my heart filled with wonder .
my heart filled with fright.
my heart started to ponder whenever you're in sight.

when did this feeling start.
when would this stop without breaking my heart.

i'm sorry, sorry for feeling this way.
sorry that i can't keep my feelings at bay.

-

2005-08-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

another crummy day for me.
:((

throat didn't get any better. it got worst instead.
by the time it was lab lesson. was running with fever already. and got rather lethargic.

even strepsils didn't work.
pooey.
there's prolly a flu bug somewhere. everyone's getting sick. shu, mona and me. tsk tsk.

MARIANNE FAN! I SWEAR YOU LOOK SOOOOOOO SWEET TODAY!! :))
hahas. i told her that if i was a guy, i'll make her my girlfriend.
hurhur.

mom came to get me after school at 8pm. u-u was in the car too. :D
drove to the docs.
he said my throat's really bad. and that if my fever doesn't subside by thurs. i've to go back dwn.
gave me some clarithromycin antibiotics, lozenges and dhamol.

mom bought kueh pitu for me to eat.
hahhas. bad man. but it was good.

poor melv's in hosp. :(

sighs.
im outta here. ciao.
gonna meet gela tmrw. :)

2005-08-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!
finally you're 18! like woah. u've waited so long for this man. hahas.

so after school i went to meet sam and nic at macs. they were studying.hurhur. soon after jinsiong and angela came. so our photo frenzy started all over again.

we left ard 3 oddish i think. cabbed dwn to town. omg. we've been cabbing too much this few days man. thats really bad. but oh wells, it was really hot. so didn't have much of a choice. hurhur.
had buffet lunch at sakae sushi. it was okayy.

gela was really eating.till she got really buffed. looking at her enjoying herself makes me smile.

tony came shortly after his work. he bought a small heart shaped chocolate truffle cake for angela and a cheesecake too.
and IT WAS HEAVENLY!! hahas
and here's the birthday girl! :)

and not forgetting all of us together. :D

we walked over to lido after. wanted to watch the island. but nic has watched it already. so we ended up catching the show truth about love. and we thought it was really stupid. the men who were acting, their accent was really strong. couldn't catch shit on what they were saying. BLAH.
but before that we had some time to kill before the show started. so we got all high again. started posing with all the movie posters. hahas.

hohoho. the seven swords.

went home after the show. angela has 2 common test papers tmrw. poor thing. she has to study on her birthday.
well, we had fun. i hope you enjoyed too. :))
love you guys uber loads.

oooo.
and i wore my cherry earrings today. and i had a pair of peas earrings too by the afternoon! hur.

:))

2005-07-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

woke up early this morning to start preparing for the bbq at ron's house.
its grandpa's birthday. early celebration i think.

and he's 85 years old already!! woohoo. grandpa's great. :D

and i wore my lion t-shirt. hahas. bought it from the singapore zoo the other time. omg. its so adorable can. hahas. the lion's mane even has fur protruding out. *snorts
and i even got a monkey one at home. hurhur.
look look.I LOVE THE LION! okok. im crazy.

so bbq was great.obviously cos mom's the one who prepared the food.and she was the one who bbq-ed it too. there was like pork chops, chicken chops, prawns and mushroom on satay sticks, tau pok stuffed with tou ya, stingray, corn, sweet potatoe, sausages(eng and chinese), chicken wings etc. i can't really rmb. but there was definately heaps of food man. :))

by the time we got home i was stuffed to the brim already. my tummy was bursting for air.

i need to go unbutton my shorts now.
ooooo.

2005-07-30T18:20:00.000+08:00

so last night we went to blacks again.
while waiting for that princess to dress up, nic and i started our photo-taking madness.

lightings, camera, action! :)

got to blacks ard 10 oddish close to 11 i think. it was really quiet. its still pack but not as bad those few last times. i reckon its because the promotion periods are over.
songs were a-okay only. no big. but still. we danced like as if it was the end of the world.
and ANTHONY, you are soooooooo mean. hahas.
now my thighs are aching BIG TIME!!
but still, thanks for everything. :D

by the time we left, it was ard 4. tony and cheewee (i can't rmb his name) were hungry. sam was too. so we headed to macs.
initially i didn't want to eat. but omg, the fries and the bites of cheeseburger from tony was heavenly balls. :))

gela. wished you were there. but owells, i'll still you on monday. :))
love love.

-

so by the time we bathed and got to bed last night was abt 5am i think.
and we had to wake up at 9am this morning to go to school to watch some swimming competition thingy.

but urgh, it was so darn difficult to get up. nic tried to be heroic by waking up at 9am on the dot.haha. she tried waking me up but i refused bcos i knew sam was not going to wake up unless you call her 101 times(but sometimes 101 times doesn't work too.HAHAS.).

gave up sleeping after nic kept on asking me to get up. bathed and she cooked cheese omelette for me. so sweeeet. :)) but i got a stomachache after. heh.

sam came and picked us up in a cab and headed dwn to sch.
by the time we got there, the swimming thingy was over. it was already the prize giving ceremony. -.-

but owells. we started our photo taking frenzy again. hahas.
sweeeeeeeeet. all 3 of us crazzzzy.

it was shawn's birthday. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN!
next thing there was whip cream being sprayed and splattered on everyone and everywhere. hahas. and it smelt really really BAD.

the people in the swim team covered in whipped cream! :)

cabbed dwn to bishan after. wanted to eat tomyum fried fish beehoon but it was closed. so went to s-11 and had prawn mee.
the soup was soooooo good.
i love sucking on the prawn's head. its sooooo good man. sam's always grossed out by it.

after the meal. sam started comparing the amt of prawns we ate. and hahas, this is the amt of prawns i ate.

this is nic's amt of prawns she ate.

and lastly, sam's amt. -.- . and she was rather proud of it.*snorts. why i got so much was because she refused to peel the rest la! she only ate the one that was peeled already. *punch

pretty much a relaxing day.
raining raining and raining.
wheeeeeee.
its gonna be a shiokedelic night to sleep in. :))

-why am i feeling this way? why can't i keep my feelings at bay.

2005-07-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

woke up in time for school today.
but by the time mom was ready and all. it was 8.15am already. LATE.
she wanted to use the posb machine. brought her up to sch to use it.then brought her to macs to buy all the burgers she want. then i left for lecture.
i think mom's becoming to be a regular customer in macs and food junction of nyp.
*grrinnnnnnnns.

what can i say? I LOVE MY MOMMY. :D

had electives after school.
its really fun. something like learning english all over again but this time in scientific words. woohoo.
and the best part? its supposedly a 3hr lesson. from 2-5pm, consisting of 2 hrs lecture and 1 hr e-tutorial.
but then the lecturer said the 2 hrs of lecture can ALWAYS be done in an hr time. SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. :))

met up with sam after. collected the famous amos cookies from jin siong.
then met nic at the bus stop.
sam came over for a while. just left.
meeting her at blacks later.

melv called this afternoon saying that his phone line got barred because of unusual usage. hahas. it was $300. i didn't know they'll bar hp lines too. i thought only credit card companies does that.
i panicked. called up and checked whats my last hp bill. and...
OMG. it was $743.96 .
SHOOT ME PLEASE.

melv's in melbourne. so now im wondering how much's my this month phone bill.
i asked the operator whether calling 019 works. she said yes.
SO PLEASE LET MY PHONE BILL DROOOOOOOOOOOP.
if not i reckon my dad's gonna skin me alive.

a baby lizard just drop to the key board.
and i thought it was the end of the world already. i was screaming my head off like there was no tmrw.
and rose, the hero came to the rescue. :))

LIZARDS AND COCKROACHES ESPECIALLY IRKS ME BIG BIG BIG TIME.

GROSS.

2005-07-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

tiring day at school.
damn shagged by the time it was clinical lab lesson.
and it was green ringers for marianne and i todayy. conincidental. hoho. :D

met nic, sam and louise after class.
supposed to meet nic for dinner.
and guess who popped out? JASON! muawhahahaha. stupid bugger. hasn't seen him in 16841651961 years.
so in the end, he came along with us for dinner too. :))

suggested S-11 but he whined that it was too hot. hahas. so went to kfc instead.
and i didn't know amk central changed a lil. im not a amk central fan.
dont even ask me what shops are there. i dont know. hur.
ordered so much food. nic ate a banditto thingy and a chicken fillet burger. hahas. greeeeeeeeeeedy.

nic says he looks like girl now. -.- . but i doubt it. hahas. nic's blind.

so you reckon he looks like a girl?

angela called halfway through.
said her fingers were itching to play pool. so met up with her outside k-pool.
and im no longer a k-pool virgin! hah. but i didn't play. prolly got to hit simple balls in. i suck at playing pool. heh.
hoho. angela all ready for action. :)

and another one getting all serious. :)

and she just wanted to pose with the pole. hahas.

stomach was killing me big time. kept burping gas out.
couldn't shit thou.
left the place ard 11pm i think.

just got some work done.
shagady shag.

oggay.
nights all.
double love. :)

2005-07-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning and felt as if every part of me was plugged up.
my nose especially.
urgh.

thought i could go to school. but couldn't cos rose gave me the thermometer and after it beeped, it read 38.5 degrees. hoo-boy.
went to dig for a ice pack from the freezer and popped some pills that i found in the medicine drawer.
i abhore going to the doctors. i'll always self-medicate. until it turns out really bad then i'll go crying to the doctors.

so i stayed at home. BUT, i still had to do some work. :(
need to prepare for some presentation thingy. ended up doing research with one hand holding up the ice pack and tissue plugging up my nose.
and if melv were to appear at that time, i'll prolly just faint and collaspe. hahas.

watched csi on AXN just now. season finale i think. omg. it was gooooooooood.
watching that particular scene where nicky got locked in that coffin-like thingy. omg. the tension in mom, rose and i was utterly utterly horrible.
nevertheless, good show! :)

owells. sch tmrw. will be able to meet the girls on friday. hoho.
big day for gela i guess. :))
ciao.

-everything is all over. over. do you get it that all's too late? imagine for godsakes. 11 mths in all. but for the past 6 fucking mths, what i had been through.all those advices that i seeked still came back down to square one but yet i still gave you all those chances over and over again, hoping and praying that there might be a chance of things turning better. it had been for 6 fucking mths damnit. whats the point of you doing this now? stop torturing yourself. its not worth it. and stop saying sorry. somehow im immune to it already.

2005-07-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

so hello.
i've not been blogging for sometime. obviously i've been lazy. heh.

sch has started since last monday. its all good. great seeing all of my classmates again. :))
things definately have changed. come to think about it. plenty actually.
year 2. so many work to do. so many things to prepare. i reckon we'll turn old faster than our mothers.

so last thurs and friday we learnt abt insertion of nasogastric tube during clinical skills lab. previous year we just learnt how to feed. this time round, its the skill to insert it in from the nose to the stomach.
so teacher asked who wanted to be the real live model since its a different feeling from doing it to the mannequin. rahman, shu and i volunteered.

i wanted to know what it was like. looking at the patients when the SNs were inserting it from them, it looked like hell judging from their violent reaction.

and i swear it was hell. the feeling wasn't good at all.
imagine a long tube pushed from your nose. down to ur throat. down the esophagus then into the stomach.

i was tearing like crap. shu was the one who inserted it in for me. linda took a photo too. here it is.

after the whole thing, ( shu had to test to check to see whether the tube was in place) isabel was the one who took it out for me. and again, it was another part of hell. but both of them did well. gentle not rough. :))

so friday we went to rav. for ashley's party. and i finally got to see gela after a month. :D
it was all good. nic and i was a goner again. but thanks to gela and sam, everything was aiirights.
oh. and nic dropped a jug on my feet. it hurts and its bruised. :(

went to the zoo on sat. slacked at home on sun i think.
then ytd headed to sch again. and for some reason, my nose wouldn't stop flowing. thus i had to plug my nose.
nic took this picture. unglam. hurhur. but too bad. i had to. i was practically walking ard in sch with that up my nose.

today in sch it wasn't any better.
but oh wells.
oh. and finally mom agrees to stop letting me learn piano. somehow i've started to lose interest in it. im just wasting her money.
after talking to her ytd, she agreed to let me stop. whew. :))

oggay.
im outta here.
byebye.

2005-07-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

finished the book already.
i think im going to start reading again. need to catch some parts.
beautiful.

waited for months for the book to be released and i finished it in 2 days. snorts*
but im loving it. :))
now i cant wait for her to release the rest. hahas.

but the story's rather sad.
didnt know he'll die. shitty man.
:(

-

sch's starting tmrw.
wheee. dont know whether im supposed to be excited or something. hahas.
oh wells. at least i can get to see everyone again after so many months.
:D

oggay.
i think im gonna start reading the book again. hahas.

oh. and i think i might need some aquamenti now. :)

byebye'

2005-07-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

some people are such prats.

-

okay. an official annoucement to make:
MY HARRY POTTER BOOK HAS ARRIVED!!
:D

it came at 8.30am this morning can. omg. so darn early. but its all good. :))
it finally came after waiting for so long.
harry potter and the half-blood prince. sweeeeeeeeeet.

went for breakfast with mom and rose this morning at the kopitiam downstairs.
while mom went to order food, rose said that one of the uncles that sells veggies in the market was talking to her and she found out that he sorta like saw what we were doing at home through binoculars.
WA LAU. fucking sick can. rose got a shock. me too.
now i cannot run ard the house naked no more. shit.

this is damn sick man. now i dont know whether i should tell mom about it.

wheeeeeee. pretty much a stay home day. supposed to acc clement, royce and aunt jen to watch fantastic four today. but heh heh. i think i'd rather settle at home with my book. :))

owells. aiirights then.
ciao. back to my book once more.
:))

-potter.potter.potter.potter.potter.potter.....

2005-07-14T17:03:00.000+08:00

i feel so tired.
i just wanna crawl into bed under my blanket and not wake up till i feel that i have to.

-

went to town earlier this morning to meet marianne.
main purpose was to shop for her levis jeans. and we did. :)) (i'm glad you liked that pair. )
had my eye on quite a number of things. but omg. i need more cash man.
only managed to buy a top and a pair of earrings for myself.

aunt jen called me and told me something. :))
and i realize i still am a archie comics fan. it has always been since pri 6.
so shut up.

im still having diarrhea. it was so uncomfortable shopping while constantly thinking about the toilet. stupid shit. so ended up leaving early first.

and marianne, you look so pretty today. :D

from today till sun. pretty much just spending my time staying at home.
i dont mind.
not a single bit.

2005-07-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

its all over.
i feel exhausted trying to salvage everything we had. and it took you ages to realise.
i've reached beyond my limit. im sorry i had to do that. but i guess enough is enough. my tears are all dried up.
it hadn't been easy, for you and for me.

life's been shit. life's been a mess.
just leave me alone. just leave me alone.

clubbing at blacks was great. i fell asleep on the sofa.
i know, tell me about it.
heh.

anyways, thank you sam and nic.
for everything.
i love you guys shitloads.
angela too. thou i havent seen you in like 2187416514 years.

now i need to take a faggie break.
bye.

isabel - yeah. only people having attachment in sgh has to work 1 week then have a 1 week holiday is because sgh has some thing going on at the 2nd week. so yeah.

wee - hey. thanks for all the stories and everything you said. but i have made my final decision already. so yeah. i dont wanna talk about it anymore. thanks again.

2005-07-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

have been feeling kinda lazy to blog recently. im even thinking of closing this. then when i get the urge to start blogging again, i'll prolly start a new one.
oh wells. we'll see.

many shit happened this few days. i dont want to go into details. i just hope that things do turn out fine.
but i hope you know that it is already too late.

oh. and i bought a new phone. my sony ericsson K700i was conking out. and i only used it for a yr. and thats my longest so far man. hahas. and im proud of myself. :))
normally my phone only lasts me for the most is 4 months and i'll have the urge to change it.
spoilt brat i know.
heh.

went with mom ytd to singtel shop at exeter road there. at first the phone i wanted was sold out. asked the person when it was coming in again and they said it just arrived.
and i got high. hahas.
so finally i got my samsung D500C. and i simply just adore that bloody phone. mom's butt got itchy too and traded in her phone for that phone on the spot too. so now both of us has the same phone.
so like what sam say's, like mother, like daughter.
hur. prolly thats one of the reasons why we're besties. :))

spent the rest of the day just slacking at home. leaving for blacks later on tonight and i still havent figure out what to wear.
prolly something simple i guess.

oggays. gotta go.
bye.

2005-07-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

2nd last day of work then another 1 week break fer me before going back to sch.
im starting to miss sch shitloads man.

morning shift today. and i was a zombie.
not bad.
CI assessed me on dressing. all's good. :))

met up with mr aussie at outram.
went to yishun to get some stuffs.
then headed to kc's.

chilled then went over to his place to get his luggage.
mr aussie's going back to melbourne today.

had dinner at crystal jade.
so full till i had to go to the toilet to bomb.

walked ard the airport. love terminal 2 as compared to 1.

sent him off at ard 10.30pm then cabbed home.
tired man.
i need to catch up on my beauty sleep. :))

- its all in a mess tangled in a spider web. help me.

2005-07-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

another fine day at work.
hoho.
even the CI's nice. how often do you get that.
heh.

met mr aussie again after work.
he's leaving in 2 days time. time passes fast balls.

met up at katib again. in kc's place again.
need to go home soon. morn shift tmrw.

omg. we're gluttons man.
and i nvr had so much fun in 354187582 years.

im prolly aging.
:)

2005-07-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

its getting confusing by the minute.
what am i getting myself into.

i just want to hide.
faraway from the lights.

2005-07-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

work's good man.
i simply simply simply just adore ward 64.
for the first time im not dreading to go to work.

hahas.
and i havent perspire in days!! aircon's the bomb man. ahahas.

met mr aussie after work at somerset.
met kc his friend after.
nice guy. :))

headed dwn to katib.
am now in kc's house.
omg man. its a free to fag till ur lungs drop kinda house.
and i think my lungs really did dropped.

heh.
okie dokes.
outta here.

2005-07-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

woke up late today.
but managed to reach sgh at abt 7.55am.

posted to ward 64s this time round.
not bad cos its a newly renovated ward.
so everything air conditioned.
even in the c class ward.

hoho. heavenly man.
:))

for the first time.
marianne and i weren't even perspiring at all.
shiokedelic.
hurhur.

1 week of attachment only.
then next week is my break again.
hahas. what more could i ask for.

cabbed home cos i was really tired from last night. slacked at home till i had to go get ready to meet the girls and mr aussie.
and i was late again. so sue me.

passed them their stuffs. hope you girls like whatever i bought.
:))

went our seperate ways after. nic was meeting willie. sam was meeting tony.
headed to woodlands with mr aussie.
brought me to the soup restaurant for dinner. woah. another fav place of mine.
the sam sui chicken is ever so good and the dessert. gui ling gao.
YUMS.

mr aussie and i made a deal before i left for bangkok.
i would get something for him there and he'll find something rare in SG.
so headed over to yishun orchid park after dinner.
and he showed me something that was really really rare in SG.
omg. i swear it took my breath away.
:))

tmrw another day of attachment.
thank god our CI is a nice person.

oggay.
im outta here.

2005-07-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

heeeelos.
just got back from bangkok.

trip was okay. but bangkok was like HOT. the sun was like OMG.
this time we took a really cheap flight.
jet star.
u have to pay on board the flight if u wanna drink something or munch or something.
heh.

and the flight attendants are really really young.
:))

stayed at pathuwan princess.
one of the bestest of the best hotels there.
it was really pretty.
and its connected to mabroonkong shopping centre.

they have like sooooo many things there.
shopping frenzy man. and things are like so darn cheap too.
didn't buy much for myselfs.
bought more things for the girls instead.

caught the last flight back today.
spent the 2 hrs by talking to cousin and cousin-in-law.
interesting couple i tell you. ahahahas.

great trip.
enjoyed myself shitloads.

tmrw. attachment for 1 week at sgh again.
wooboy.
i need to sleep soon after unpacking.

out.

2005-07-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

mornings all.

im sooooooooo sleepy.
i have 2 dark rings under my eyes.
fugly fugly fugly.

supposed to help mom key in data entry at her office today.
but apprently i couldnt get up.
so now im home alone.

rose went to lucky plaza i think.

im leaving for bangkok later on.
more shopping. :))
will be back only on sunday.
then attachment starts on mondayy.

oggay.
byebye.
see you guys on sunday.

2005-06-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

-all i ask for is just to get a job, my own buggy, my own lil place and a dog.
its just that simple. is it?

met up with mr. aussie at yck station this morning.
i was late. i know, AGAIN. -.-
and he said " its ok to be fashionably late."
hmm.

headed dwn to suntec.
went to kushingbo to eat.
its jap buffet. omg. i think im really turning jap. heh.
and its soooooooooooooo good man. im going to bring mom and the girls there.
so much food and its so darn cheap. :))

headed to sky garden.
woah. looking at it. memories man.
haven't been in there like 258519235498 years.
today, no sun at all. just the wind blowing and blowing.
sat by the fountain. talked and fagged our lungs away.

we went to catch a movie after.
watched war of the worlds. i thought it was bad when i saw the preview.
but actually after watching it, i thought it was good. heh.
the main key of the show is BACTERIA.
:))

headed back to sky garden.
nearest place to go w/o having to go all the wayy dwn to fag.
and i realized the things we talk are different from what i normally talk to others.
the topics. and we come from the same kinda backgrd.
kinda interesting really.

yeah. simplicity is easy to think, easy to fantasize. but its hard to get.
think about it.

he had to go back to cook up a meal for his yiyi.
so we headed home first.

simple day. but i enjoyed myself shitloads. :))

received his call again saying abt dinner later on.
i am supposed to go dwn to katib.
ahhhhhh.
im gonnna put back the pounds man.
shiat. hahas.

but mom said too bad he's leaving on the 7th.
YA LOR.
sighs sighs sighs.

oggay.
im outta here.
:))

2005-06-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

it feels like a sunday today.

had to choose for sch's electives last night.
was shitty man. everything sounds so boring.
marianne and i ended up choosing some health information management thingy. bah.
b-o-r-i-n-g.

so, anyways, met sammi for dinner today.
settled for sakae sushi.
tony came after.

took a slow walk to hard rock.
but its a no no place for fagging. so we settled dwn at rocky master across the road.

chilled. then took another slow walk dwn to the train station.
trained home.

mr aussie called.
wants to meet up tmrw before i go bangkok. and guess what.
we're gonna go have jap food for lunch. -.-
i think im gonna turn jap.
hur.

aiirights then.

outta.

2005-06-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

happy birthday baby. :))
20 yrs old.
OLD.

heh.
woke up with my shoulders aching again.
its been sorta like loose eversince i worked at motorola last time. carrying heavy cartons and all.
mom said its time to go to the docs.
i've been procrastinating. so gave up. mom thought that it was my slipdisc.

doc said it seems fine.
prolly im just too tense up. with what man. hahas.
so he said not to play any contact games. sit up STRAIGHT.and RELAX.
*snorts.
gave me some muscle relaxation medication.
and guess what.
immediately i felt so much better.

went grocery shopping.
bought some stuffs for browns dinner later on.

spent the rest of the day reading.
then headed over to aunt jen's house at ard 7 odd.

borrowed aunt jen's place since she only goes there for the weekends.
started preparing the food.
grilled pork chop, fried potatos, boiled corn.
and mushroom soup. :)
and i did it ALL BY MYSELF!!.
*proud
ahahahas.

by the time browns came, i was all bathed and done.
layed the table and dishes out.
pork chop came out good. :D
he loved it. wheeeeee.

had suckao for dessert since he didn't have it before.
he was rather fascinated bout it. hurhur.

im glad everything turned out fine.
im beat balls.
aiirights. nights.!

2005-06-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

oui.
woke up early this morning.
and i got farking excited.
ahahas.

met up with mr. aussie at yck mrt station. and i was late larh.
nothing new i know.

trained down to somerset.
went to cini to catch a show. we both wanted to watch initial D. but apprently cini didn't have it. so he chose my boyfriend is type-B.
its some korean show that is actually not bad!! hahas.
was rather funny actually.

mr aussie surprised me big time.
he's chinese is so much better than me. how embarassing is that man.
was orginally borned in malaysia. came to sg to study till sec 3. then headed to melborne to study.
now he's majoring in food science technology in the U. how impressive. like woah.
and he speaks chinese, english, hokkien and korean. oh gawd. i know its no biggie but its a fuckin' big deal to me. :)
now i sound like a bimbo. heh.

he brought me to some pretty expensive jap restaurant at taka.
he knows the head chef there. hooooooooo.
food was really good.
and oh. he's a rubbish bin too. and he LOVES kway chap!!!!!!!!! :D

so yeah. walked ard aimlessly.
practically talking abt every single shit under the sun.
and i noticed that he has the kind of smile that can make bake beans boil in their can.
but he's leaving on the 7th of july back to aussie.
sad sad sad sad.

came home after that. he's mom was coming to sg to visit him tmrw.
so he had to clean up his place.
he stays in a condo all by himself with 5 fucking bedrooms. *faints.

ahhhh.
great day today.

lalala. its browns birthday tmrw.
its gonna be busy.
:))

ciao.

2005-06-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

nic. do u realize each time when we leave the house and you say:
" mel, i have a feeling today is going to be a very boring night."
it always turns out being the opposite? hahas. silly billy.

anyways, blacks was simply wild last night.
bartenders dancing on bar tops, stripping.
water being splashed everywhere.
bartenders singing.
songs were the ultimate.
meeting mr. malaysia and more! heh.
ooo. getting to see willie. heh heh.
having nic and mr malaysia puke at sam's and my feet. hurhur.
all the free drinks we were getting. from the bartender(XJ) and compliments from cal.

nic and i was there since 9.45pm.
sam came only at ard 11 odd close to 12.
she had to work before that.

didnt leave black till ard 5.30am.
nic was close to be gone. my stomach was hurting big time.
and boyy, nic you're heavy. ;)

woke up at 11 this morning.
tired and hungry.

walked shell and u-u over to cousin's.
and i think im going out tmrw. :D

gonna watch spideyman now.
outta here.

and oh.
hellloo mr. aussie.
:))

2005-06-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

hoo.
met browns at my house dwnstairs last night.
while walking to the mrt station, we decided to cab. we were HOT. heh.
headed dwn to ps.

settled down at cartel.
ordered my steak.
and he ordered his southern chicken. nice.
the asparagus soup was mmm.. okay. thou i love asparagus big big time.

ben and xw came dwn.
glanced up dwn up dwn.
woah. both adidas from head to toe and their hands were filled with carrying many adidas paper bags. impressive.
but then again. baby, i think i know what you meant.hahas.

wanted to catch initial D. omg, i can't believe i want to watch a chinese show on big screens.
i dont usually do that.
but all the show times were fully booked. even right up to the 2.30am one. only front row seats were available.
so caught batman begins instead.
um.. lets just say that browns dozed off 15 mins after the show started. i was watching him half the time and i only started concentrating at the middle part.
thats how the show was. *shrugs

by the time it ended, it was 3 odd.
caught a midnight cab. then headed for home.
both of us slept like a log.

dragged him out of bed at ard 12pm.
the whole house was filled with the smell of whatevers mom cooking. and we realize it was the mee sua with red wine chicken.
browns go crazy when mom cooks that. she knows thats his favourite dish. :))

nic came by after.
spent the rest of the day watching tv. star movies had some good ones.
but couldnt complete all.
need to get ready to leave for blacks.
we're running late and tony's on the wayy.

oggay.
outta here. :)

2005-06-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

oggay.
so i just got back this morn.
i just looove airplane food.
ima airplane food junkie. :)

im supposed to go pulau ubin with the class today.
but apprently i couldn't from looking at the time i got back.
sighs.

took a nappie and i met sam in the afternoon.
went to jalan kayu to visit shuzmod showroom then had prata for lunch.
headed to amk central after.
i swear thou i stay at amk. i abhore going there and can never ever find my way about.

came home after. finished reading my storybook on a FBI thriller.
all changed and ready.
now im just waiting for browns to come. i missed him shitloads during that trip. :))
gonna go for dinner and catch a show.
ben and xw is coming along too.

thought of catching initial D at first.
but checked on the net and everything is full except 2.30am that is just left with front seats.
i know, like woah.
so prolly will catch batman begins or something.

okay.
he's here. gonna go dwn.
its 9pm and im leaving to eat my dinner.
heh.

- did u people hear my part of the story? you only heard his.
so all of u start being sympathetic to him? who's doing all the work? who's the one who wishes and calls. its fucking goddamn ME. i know its not often. at least i still do. i bought u gifts w/o anyone pressing me to do it on ur special occasions.
why am i taking chingalings from you now, its because u goddamn deserve it. its been fucking 18 long years. you were given the chance to put things right. thousands and thousands of chances. where were u then? prolly screwing. i know im mean. but u dont go telling everyone YOUR own side of the story and after that getting all their sympathie. are you really really that downright pathetic.
u deserve it man.
yes, dad, you derserve it.

2005-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

didn't sleep well last night.
dont know why. kept turning.
was kinda lethargic and grumpy.

went to visit another relative that i CANNOT recognise at all.
and i got a ang bao from them. heh. im NT$1000 richer.

i received a sms from browns today.
was rather surprised and happy. sorta made my day.
hmm.. seems like prolly i should go overseas more often eh?
hahas.

had lunch then went to sogo to shop.
s'pore doesn't have any more sogo shopping centre i think.
things are rather expensive there man.
and i bought a white based green polka dotted shoe.
hahas. oh! and bras. :))
and all these that im carrying below belongs to mom. only one miserable small bag was mine.-.- .

walked back to the hotel after. chilled.
then went to DFS at danshui cos cousin yen wanted to buy a anne klair diamond watch. think it was NT$6000. expensive balls.

went to a seafood restaurant to eat.
diff wayy of cooking this time and again, IT WAS SO DARN GOOD.
DAMNIT man.
the green thing is seaweed. those that you find in the sea larh. i dont like. taste damn gross. i love the lala's thou. hurhur. and thats aunt margaret, mom and aunt huiling.

hahas. the princess's watermelon. :D

have ter pack my luggage now.
leaving tmrw for home.
LIKE FINALLY. i miss everyone.
:)

2005-06-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

mom yelled for me to get up at 7.30am.
so tired.

as usual. had breakfast dwnstairs.
my sweetheart and the cookie monster.

aunt magaret and aunt huiling came after and drove us to the famous yang ming shan.
OMG. IT WAS SO SO SO PRETTY.

mommy and daughter. preeetty scenery.

omg. read the sign man. the english is hilarious. snorts.

look at the beautiful mountain tops. its just so gorgeous.

hoho.then started taking random shots. :))

hahas. he likes it taken in a IMPROMTU kinda wayy. and ooooo. DOUBLE CHIN. heh

hahas. my lil princess.

it was ard lunch time when we left.
we drove halfway dwn the mountain and stopped at a small lil hut.
its kinda like those mountain-y mini no air con restaurant.
its called " qing chai yuan". hahas. so cute.

continue driving to another side of the mountain.
aunt magaret wanted to show us another tourists spot.
and it was to see a real live volcano. hahas.
and i was DAMN DAMN DAMN fascinated. snorts.
ITS A REAL LIVE VOLCANO THAT CAN ERUPT ANY MOMENT LARH!!
HAHAS.
the smokin' volcano that hasn't erupt in yrs. its still "sleeping".

the small pool of mud is bubbling can. and the stone was darn hot.

headed dwn to SQ's headquarters after. mom wanted to extend the trip.
but couldn't cos flight was fully booked.
thank god. cos im starting to get scared of the fooood.
its wayyy too much. hahas.

during the night, cabbed dwn to siling night market.
and i got to eat my smelly tofu, 5 chuan of chicken backside, oyster meesua, the taiwan version of XXL chicken. woah. sinful but good.

AND IM GONNA GO TO BED NOW.
:D
byeeeeeeeee.

2005-06-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Fathers' Day everyone.

woke up at 8am this morning.
went dwn for our complimentary buffett breakfast.
and im sorry to say, it was PATHETIC.
i mean, considering its a 5 star restaurant. like hello.

after breakfast while waiting for aunt magaret and aunt huiling (yup, a aunt called huiling too) to arrive. my hands got itchy again. so... :))
megane and zhi. :)

mom and big aunt.

the hotel.

taking with lilies is really weird. snorts.

preeeetty picture. :)

they drove us to a shopping centre some distance away.
we had to take turns to carry megane.
she was rather cranky this morning. prolly there wasn't enough sleep.
in the car, aunt magaret gave mom and i NT$20,000 (ard S$1000 la).said it was from dad.
..oggay. thanks. but aiyah. mom held on to the cash. hur.

managed to buy some things thou. not much as compared to mom.
-.-.
tried finding for nic's ikan bilis.
but nope.
i found some black small fish instead. that smelt really wrong.
went to visit the famous taiwan 101.

met uncle albert, godpa( i have a godpa in taiwan. hmm), and the other uncles. had dinner and some scrumptious seafood restaurant. the sushi was fuckin-loutely good and fresh.
drank plenty of sakae. :)
and the people said that all my lil actions are like my dad.
OMG. the people scrutinizes me while i eat.
aunt magaret and megane.

walked to the 24HR cold storage after.
u are allowed to bring ur pets in while u shop.
I LIKE. :D
theire watermelons are horrendously HUGE. Lays came in a box. was my first time seeing it. durians were packed in that round thingy and the black rectangular thing in the center? its the famous Pig's blood mixed with black glutinous rice. and i dont like it. hahas. mom and the rest are ga-ga over it.

oooo. sleeeeepy.
nights all.

2005-06-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at 3.30am this morning.
only 3 hrs of sleep. tired boyyys.
drove to grandpa's house to leave mom's car there and at the same time wait for the taxi to get us. it was aunt jen, mom and me then.
it was raining donkeys and monkeys when we got there. freeezing.

in the airport. the departure board. :)

after a short while, cousin yen and zhi, megane, big aunt and husband arrived.
checked in and went through immigration.

my adorable lil sweetheart sitting on the trolley.

mom and daughter. :D

was flight SQ 872. and departed at 8am.
I LOVE SIA. :)
got a lil bored. cos the inflight movies i had watched before.
even the nintendo games bored me after a while. so my camera became my companion. :))
my aunt jen.

mom, me and the funky earphones. hur.

fellytone cum game control cum remote control.

heh. love them both shitloads.

arrived taiwan at 1.30pm.
it was 35 degrees outside. crazy man.
taiwan's airport. :)

took our luggage and went out to look for a person holding a sign that supposedly was supposed to say Alice Goh or something. and we found: Welcome to taiwan, Mr. Alice Goh. ' snorts.
it took 40 mins to reach the hotel.
we were staying at Howard Plaza Royal Hotel.
its a 5 star. i know. WOAH.

the trio. me, aunt jen and yezhi (my cousin. )

going to taiwan is ALWAYS a big thing. cos of relatives that i dont really know of and also because of friends mom, dad and i know since i was a baby. heh.
so met uncle albert and aunt magaret.
went sightseeing as usual. then fooooooooood.
yums. hohoho.
i'm so gonna put on weight when im here. GUARANTEED.

fooooood. :)

CORN. OMG.

after that, went for dinner at some restaurant.
met all of other dad's friends who hadn't seen me since i was like 12.
so there def was alot of coo-ing and ah-ing. -.-
but it was all goood.
got to eat my pig's kidney and pig's intestine cooked in a diff style.

yums.

2005-06-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

trained to far east for drinks.
it was soooo quite cos black wasn't open.
its good. dark and quiet. :))

cept for interruptions from old cheeko men and women dancing.
gross gross gross.

and cept for the occasional wave of pungent urine smell that was coming out from a certain pathway.
pooey.

chat till 4am.
cabbed back and met browns dwnstairs after his night rounds.
stayed over.

another lazy day.
finally packed my luggage.
leaving tmrw.
5 days. im gonna miss EVERYBODY.
snifffffffff.
heh.

toodles.
girls - tc ok? i love u guys. rmb, BANGKOK and USA!!!. :D

2005-06-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

pretty much cooped at home with my storybook.
its titled 'The Nanny'.
pretty good book.

read till nic came from sch.
ignored her still after she came. continued reading.
heh heh.

couldn't decide whether to club or not tonight.
prolly might go drinking instead.

ohhhhhhhhs. lalalala.
sam darling. please take care of yourself? ilu. :))

byebye. gotta go get ready.

2005-06-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

supposed to go tanning today.
but it was raining dinosaurs and hippos.

nic and i got bored.
so decided to invite ourselves to sam's place. :))
and IM SO GLAD WE DID MAN.

but first. how unlucky could WE get.
nic and i trained to bishan. met her at the tomyam stall.
so as usual, gossip gossip, fagged, fagged.
all the four of us. sam.candice.nic and i.
candice flicked her bud to the grass. i just threw mine in bwt my legs.
and next thing i knew,
a plain clothed man with a indi partner came up and held up a pass with his picture and words beside that says ENVIRONMENT OFFICER or something like that.
SHIT MAN. caught us littering.
he let me off with just a warning cos i was 18 and was still studying. they didnt want to tarnish my record.
but candice had to pay a $200 fine. cos she said she wasn't studying.
KANA SAI.
WA LAU. STUPID MEN.

so went to sam's house.
watched russell something show. he's a comedian.
oh god. i thought i was gonna pass out from just laughing.

pigged out on yogurt.
I LOVE YOGURT.

nic and i dug through a bag of unwanted clothes from sam and candice.
and, i got a adidas shorts and a spag top.
candice gave me a pair of levis. AHHHHHH!.
THANK YOU SAM. THANK YOU CANDICE. :))

so had prawn mee for dinner.
nice.
then trained home.
nic alighted with me. and we talked.
THANK YOU sweetie.
that helped ALOT.

gyming tmrw.
lalalala. nights world.

candyy - :) on the 18th to rav? ahhhh. i cant go. i'm leaving for taiwan on the 18th! shit man. so sorry. nots i'll def go. but anyways, thanks for asking! some other time ok? promise!!

2005-06-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

spent my afternoon watching cinderella story AGAIN.
-.-

took a nap before meeting mom in town.
met nic and sam at the train station first.
sam and i walked ard ts. then she left to meet tony.
i went to meet mumsie.

i didn't buy any clothing or shoes today.
how depressing.blah.
bought my beads and earrings instead.

okay.
see u tmrw girls.
byebye.

2005-06-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

why are moms always right about whatever they say??
i hate it when I KNOW whatever mom said just now was so darn right.

is it really time to do it.
mom said a hell loads of things that i was questioning myself over and over again.
SHE knows exactly how i am feeling, what i am thinking.
every single problem, every single feeling i felt all this while dribbled endlessly from her mouth.

i wanted her to shut up.
but yet i wanted her to carry on. FINALLY someone knows how to describe in words how i exactly feels.
maybe because shes my mom.
maybe thats it.

i feel like doing it.
but i dont have the balls to do it.
im afraid.
of what? i fucking do not know.
is it really the time now.

i know i've reached my limit.
i practically am giving up.
i know i have to do something.
i shouldn't drag it any longer.
nots i know it'll be alot worst.

what am i to do.

but anyways, mom.
thank you.

2005-06-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

my head is pounding.
my mind is swirling.
my vision is blurring.

that was what i got after i got back from rav.
it was BLAH.
full of underage peeps.
heh.

but i still had ridiculous fun with my girlfriends.
dance dance dance till our boobs drop.
drink drink drink till our liver withered.
and
fag fag fag till ur our lungs charcoaled.
heh.

didnt get into bed till 4.30am
and mom woke me up at 6.30am.
imagine HOW grouchy i was then.

i snoozed practically at every chance i got.
got back home at 8am.
and plopped dwn to bed and finally waking up at 12pm.
and nic. didnt wake up till 2pm.
hur.

spent my sunday with nic.
watching loads of tv.
and i caught my lil white thing snoozing in between mom's pillows.

wooooo. tired.
nights all.

2005-06-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

i got cranky the whole of last night.
faked myself happy in the morning.
-
its the ba zhang season now.
i didnt know.
opened the fridge and a whole bundle of ba zhang greeted me good morn.
im not a ba zhang fan. i'd rather stick to kway chap.
ok. i know. no link.
heh.

pretty much slacked at home in the noon.
browns went fishing with the boys.
nic came over after her debate thing thing.
and she, mom and i were fussing over tampons.
funny shit.

left for grandpa's for dinner.
had a sudden impulse to get my hair cut. so mom dropped nic and i off at someplace near grandpa's. not bad actually. but now, all my remaining curls has been snipped off. say hello to the long straight hair after 2 yrs. and i like it. hur.
and hell yeah, it definately feels good to start combing my hair again.

dinner was good.
COCKLES MAN.

gela just popped by too.
picking up sam later.
gonna go rav.
hope it'll be better than the previous.

ciao.

yzanne - yeah. i think im ok. prolly am pms-ing thou my period is over. hahas. oh wells. but thanks for asking anyways. :)

kelvin - GOT MEH? hahas. thats like not so la. :p

2005-06-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

its been long.
i've been thinking.
i think im going for the sake of going.

am i?

2005-06-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

tmrw is the last day of attachment.
woah. like finally.
i need to take a breather balls.

mom came to fetch me off work.
went to my dad's mother house (my grandmama).
argh. dont like it. everytime i see her it'll remind me of how hypocritical she is when i was really young and i was still living in springleaf.

springleaf.
that pretty house brings back wonderful memories.
if u'll exclude all the quarrelling of mom and dad.
if u'll exclude wailing and screaming from me when i hear them shout.
if u'll exclude all the flase accusations that were made on me.
if u'll exclude all the things that my dad's mom said to me.
if u'll exclude all the fugly things that i saw people do in that house.
yah. the remains are my pretty memories of that house.
-

i asked mom what if one day uncle J asks to marry him.
what would she say.
she said why not.

i should be happy for her when that day comes.
shouldn't i?
but why do i ... ... .

maybe im just use to having only HER in my life.
not anyone else.
is that it?

or maybe.
i dont trust dads anymore.

i dont know.

maybe i should just go with the flow.

2005-06-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

the uncle spits.
the uncle boxes.
the uncle wacks.
the uncle only favours only one nurse.
the uncle taught us how to say penis in malay.
that is mr abdul from 16.
so cheeky.
-
im tired.
im beat.
im drained.
and i still cant fucking forget what you fucking said.
cheebye
-

jol - eheheh. so next time, just rmb to double check okay? its REALLY IMPORTANT. hmm.. what other parties u've got? i know theres one this sat at RAV.

nic - heh. she was too far away. by the time i saw her butt, she disappeared into the crowd.

marianne - hey swts, you feeling better? glad u gave me a call. i'll see you tmrw. take care girl. love love.

2005-06-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

3 days more to the end of attachment.
like finally.
blah.

a 3 yr old girl got admitted today.
she simply just made my day. :))
practically kept going into her room to play with her.
something diff for a change at least.

cabbed home.
too tired larh.

met browns at somerset at 6.45pm.
went to catch 'Mr and Mrs Smith'.
ehhhh. its aiiright.
rating : 6.5/10?
i dont know. wasnt' that fantastic.
but its free tickets. so its okayy. hahas.

guesswhat.
browns and i were so darn smart.
we entered the wrong theatre.
marianne couldnt find us.
i insisted that i was in the right theatre and made her stand up and wave so i could see her.
ehhehehh. utterly embarrassing. had to quickly scramble out while trying to act normal.

oh. right. another thing.
after the movie. while waiting for browns to come out from the toilet.
a girl walked out. didnt notice anything diff abt her till a happen to glance at her back view.
oh god.
she was wearing a skirt. apprently, after using the toilet, neither did she wear her panties properly nor did she check whether her skirt was in place.
what i saw was that the back of her skirt was tucked into her panties.
imagine the sight. she was walking with her butt and panties showing.
oh god.
i wonder who's her date balls.

so rmb.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. check that your panties and skirts are in place before coming out of the toilet next time ok!

that is so damn important.

2005-06-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

you just made me crave for more.

2005-06-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

browns surprised mom and me last night.
he was on duty in town till 9pm.
heard my doorbell ring at abt 11pm. mom and i were wondering which idiot was it cos it was kinda late aleady.
i opened the door and there he was standing there, grinning foolishly with supper in his hands.
:))

idiot. only make me wanna give him a large sloppy kiss.
which i did after that.
ehhehhehheh.
he stayed over again. :D

got up early this morning.
am suppose to go for gela's grandpapa funeral today. but sam and i can't go. long story. sighs. sorry sweetie.

mom dropped him off at his place while we continued on to PS.
mom wanted to go for shoe shopping. but ick. nothing nice.
so decided to stop by at secret receipes for some bites.

we order a carrot and ginger soup and a spicy tom yum chicken noodle to share.
bad move.
the soup was ok. but the noodles was bad.
mom had a dessert. i stucked to water.

mom's dessert. affrogato. its black expresso poured over vanilla ice cream.

its really good. :)

after eating we decided to continue walking ard.
didn't intend to get anything till i tried on this long skirt.
wanted to buy it immediately but mom said to walk ard somemore to see whether there might be others.
but i couldn't stop thinking abt it. so mom was like " okay la. go buy it la. "
wheeee. :))

ooo. my 2nd long skirt. i have a sudden fetish for long skirts. heh heh. :) thank u mommy.

PS started to bore mom and i so we went back to secrets receipe to buy a slice of chocolate banana cake and a slice of mango delight.
packed it. and we went to cousin yen's place. got to see my lil sweetheart.

megane. my adorable lil one. :)

pretty much just slacked at their place. playing with her and watched cartoons. shawn decided to have dinner at tanglin shopping centre. mom and i have not eaten the ma la huo guo before. so we decided to have a go at it.

the magic wok at chongqing's.

no biggie. mom and i didn't really enjoy it. i think i prefer the normal steamboat.

darn full. just got home. tired too.
another week of work tmrw. just 5 more days and its play time.
i cant wait.
it seems all of us dislikes VTP.
oh wells. no choice. just TAHAN LOR.

good night y'all.

2005-06-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

she quietly let u-u into my room this morning.
with all her jumping and frisking ard. her lil paws stepping on the wrong parts of our body. chewing of our hair. using her paws to scratch our asses and backs.
browns and i gave up fighting with her and got up from bed.
sneaky mom.
:))

bathed once i got up. its my routine.
bathe IMMEDIATELY after getting up.
walked out and saw browns talking to mom in the kitchen while she was preparing lunch.
stood there and watch.
and another smile formed on my lips. :))

went for the dog hash at springleaf.
ran through many spiderwebs and clouds of buzzing sandflies.
gross.
sloshed through thick oily mud that were knee high.
disgusting yet fun.
shell turned from brown to dark brown and u-u from white to brown.

aunt amy saw me at the runsite and said i look so fair now. so pretty.
oh god.
sam. WE NEED TO TAN REAL SOON.
-
life's short and always filled with surprises. be it good or bad.
one part of the world will be deliriously happy bcos a new life has been brought into this world. yet at the other part of the world, somebody's loved one has passed on.
life's really full of expectations.

for the next 3 years.
its going to be hard.
all the DOs and DONTs.

but again.
i feel them drifting away from me.
im sorry i had to lie.
but i didn't have choice.
if only i could turn back time.
i'll make it right again.

2005-06-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

almost another week has gone by.
another 5 days of work left to go.
rather fast actually.

went to town with marianne after work.
walked ard.
and I SPENT MONEY AGAIN.
i think there should not be such things like allowances, salary or pay etc.
but then again, prolly i'll just die.

bought my new converse shoe.
it was having discount. again, IT WAS HAVING A DISCOUNT!
went to fox.
bought 2 adorable lil tees for megan. ghim gave me 10% discount.
SHE'S my NIECE. SO ITS OK FOR AUNTY TO BUY HER THINGS SOMETIMES WHAT.
then. i bought my very first long skirt. hahas.
I DONT HAVE ANY LONG SKIRT. AND IT LOOKS NICE. :)
so there. i have excuses for each item i bought.
now i feel soooo much better.
ahhhhhhhhhhh.

topshop was having a closed party for members only.
only members could go in and shop before the others do.
it was from 7pm-12am.
and was allowed to bring 2 friends in.
brought marianne and pam in.

queue was absofuckingloutely long.
and when i got in.
i bought NOTHING.
bah. nothing caught my eye.

and i saw TOO MANY PEOPLE already.
TOO MANY.

met nic and sam sometime later.
had supper outside taka.
stacy came over shortly after and bought us ice cream.

cabbed home.
browns met me dwnstairs and came up.
he's watching tv with mommy.talking and laughing.
looking at the picture from afar just makes me smile.

something i've been noticing.
time passes so fast. at the blink of an eye.
sure, things change. all kinds. big small medium tall.
i always wonder if my turn will come soon.
thou i definately dont wish to have a turn in that.
but somehow looking at it. my turn might not come after all.
thats good.
i just miss them. all of them.
time has definately taken some of them away from me.
somewhere.
somewhere far.